staind

But in the end if I’m with you. I’ll take the chance

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Cause It’s always raining in my head

Best part of this post is the truck behind Aaron Lewis. I used to have a ’72 Ford that looked just like it, though it never ran in my lifetime. It had been stored for many years and the transmission had been stolen while in storage. I thought that as a 15 year old child, i was going to figure that right out and as I found out that even in the year 2000, it was not easy to come by an engine for a 1972 truck. I’m not sure what happened to it but it was probably given away one I realized I could not do more than sit in it and listen to the radio and boy did I ever. It had a very specific smell in it, I think my dad would laugh and say ‘yeah varnish’ if I mentioned it. I still don’t really understand if gas turns into varnish but if I were to say that outload my male family members would wonder how I get by in life – the good thing is, no one ever calls into the helpdesk at work asking why 1972 trucks smell weird inside.

I decided to look into this and fuck… how does he know so much – I still don’t understand but yes.. varnish..

But I know I’ll do the right thing if the right thing is revealed

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This morning, I woke up and up on Adele. I sung a few of my favorites as I for ready, “One and Only” being one of them. I lead to a text I sent, and somewhere in there the phrase in the title echoed somewhere deep inside. What I was able to articulate from what I was getting was not quite the same but somewhere after lunch it came to me. I could feel the tone of the song and I knew the emotion but I couldn’t place the actual words or even the song itself. Somewhere in the bank just before getting my third Dr. Pepper, it occurred to me, it was revealed not presented. Somehow I was able to piece together, ‘right thing is revealed’ and from there, goggle was able to tell me what I was thinking.

Staind – Epiphany (2001)

I saw Staind live with Marilyn Manson before the next song had even come out yet. It was on Halloween of 2003 in Dallas, TX. I drove all the way up to Davis, Oklahoma to pick up a friend and then we went back to Dallas (I lived a few hours south of Dallas) to go to the Smirnoff Music Center. I was not prepared for the traffic that I was about to run into that day and am lucky that I didn’t die in an awful car wreck. We missed Sevendust but made it in time to see Staind and then Marilyn Manson.

Staind – Right Here Waiting (2005)

One of my favorite Staid songs is actually a Metallica Cover, but I think it is worth throwing in here. I don’t remember which yeah I have been putting, so I will go with the year the song came out on the next one – not the year it was recorded.

Staind – Nothing Else Matters

As fucked up as it all may seem

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I saw Aaron Lewis once, back in about 2003 in Dallas. I never understood why he would be the one to open for Marilyn Manson at the Freaker’s Ball show. Back then I used to be so brave and carefree. During that time, I had been dating Mindy, who is now Kristopher. That is a complicated conversation, but she had already started talking to Pam. I wasn’t having it. I lived here. Mindy lived in Oklahoma and Pam lived in Washington State at the time. I drove my happy ass to Davis, Oklahoma in hopes that she would go with me to this concert. I had a back up plan to take one of her friends if she refused, but she agreed to go with me and we had a great time. Just like everyone one, we had a complicated relationship. She left me for Pam, who was much more feminine. Since I had no limits back then, somehow – I ended up with Pam. She ended up coming to visit over spring break of 2004 and then she moved to Texas to live with me for the next few years.

It all ended when she went back to WA to go to her step-sister’s wedding. Some jealous mutual friend of ours told her that she saw me take someone home from Lucy’s – which was a complete lie. She was so distraught, she ran to the one person that I told her to stay away from back there and then what I knew would happen did – and well, I used to be, a lot different.

When she left, I told her, if you touch Aimee while you are there, you will never touch me again – and I held true to that.

I used to be very passionate and romantic. Now I try my best not to be either. I feel like it’s forbidden and I try my best to just stay away.

I’ve been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions

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As I walked into my favorite Stripes, I saw there men crowded around this awesome old black Mustang.  They were paying as I was using the ATM so I complimented them on the car. Turns out, it was the cashier’s car.. he is a nice guy, we all bonded over cars for a few minutes and it was a great moment and then I proceeded on with my day and came across this mix.

I was leaving the neighborhood as Santeria came on, and I played it way too loud and I passed her street..

And then Terrible Lie came on so I had to take a detour through the old neighborhood where we used to walk. That was be blasting 90s music from the minivan next to the elementary school today.

Then 99.5 thought that I needed a little Staind in my life after that.

Purely for camedic value, they through in Dirty Deeds..

I reached by destination by the time that Forty Six and two was ending. It felt powerful but no one would understand.

All the times that I felt like this won’t end

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And here’s a blast from the past for anyone old enough to have seen a music video on MTV..

Today’s awesome discovery about life is Astral Projection, which could be the reason for my insanely real feeling dreams.

Since we are visiting last decade.. or more really; I will go ahead and play a song from another artist that I have seen live. I’m secure in my masculinity..

The only line that bothers me in this song right now is the “Ugly like me,” because I think that we both have quite beautiful souls.

couldn’t be much more from the heart

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Now, I wouldn’t normally recommend Staind over Metallica, but with “Nothing Else Matters,” I will. This song, Metallica’s version, has come on the radio a few times lately.

In the last year or so.. I have gotten so much unsolicited advice, which I could only ignore and explain they didn’t understand and it wasn’t like that.  I feel fortunate that I feel passionate enough about someone or something that I am able to ignore outside forces… seems very relevant.

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