I saw Aaron Lewis once, back in about 2003 in Dallas. I never understood why he would be the one to open for Marilyn Manson at the Freaker’s Ball show. Back then I used to be so brave and carefree. During that time, I had been dating Mindy, who is now Kristopher. That is a complicated conversation, but she had already started talking to Pam. I wasn’t having it. I lived here. Mindy lived in Oklahoma and Pam lived in Washington State at the time. I drove my happy ass to Davis, Oklahoma in hopes that she would go with me to this concert. I had a back up plan to take one of her friends if she refused, but she agreed to go with me and we had a great time. Just like everyone one, we had a complicated relationship. She left me for Pam, who was much more feminine. Since I had no limits back then, somehow – I ended up with Pam. She ended up coming to visit over spring break of 2004 and then she moved to Texas to live with me for the next few years.
It all ended when she went back to WA to go to her step-sister’s wedding. Some jealous mutual friend of ours told her that she saw me take someone home from Lucy’s – which was a complete lie. She was so distraught, she ran to the one person that I told her to stay away from back there and then what I knew would happen did – and well, I used to be, a lot different.
When she left, I told her, if you touch Aimee while you are there, you will never touch me again – and I held true to that.
I used to be very passionate and romantic. Now I try my best not to be either. I feel like it’s forbidden and I try my best to just stay away.