I left a concert once because I was feeling sick, the next act was Flyleaf, but I didn’t know who they were. I saw Kill Hannah, a band that is probably not around anymore. This morning when I was looking for a song to listen to, I stumbled upon this gem. It reminded me of the time I missed out on seeing a bad ass show by taking the easy way out.. I’m not sure why I think that’s pretty relivant. I guess it’s one of the small things that I’ve always regretted. I prefer the Trent Reznor version, but she’s easy on the eyes.
Rock
This is a list of rock music genres consisting of subgenres of popular music that have roots in 1940s’ and 1950s’ rock and roll, and which developed into a distinct identity as rock music in the 1960s, particularly in the United Kingdom and the United States.
and it feels like I’m just too close to love you
From the first time I heard this song, over a year ago, every time this song comes on, I just pause, listen, stare off into space.. if reminds me of two or three different nights.
I never know what to think about it.
Just want to start this over
I am left with this energy about me, every time that I see her… or ever talk to her. It’s a nice change when I fel like its hard to get excited about much sometimes.

When I saw the image above, I thought about her and had to save it. My desktop is full of images that make me think about her; not that I need any reminder, but people say it’s cute.. or something like that. I guess I am sensitive after all. I think I have been doing well at keeping a balance and control of those emotions that get so carried away so easily.
I had not seen her in months, she started to talk to me again, maybe she could see my progress from a distance. It’s nice to feel trusted. The words she uses reminds me that its not me that she doesn’t trust.. or something like that. Life never gets less complicated.
You held your breathe and the door for me
Today I got the biggest surprise, and loved every minute of it. Even if I did keep talking and say everything that came to mind without filter, whatever, that’s me. Tonight I am listening to a lot happier music than normally. Ani Difranco isn’t specifically sad but it discusses political issues, even subtily that are just too real and tend to get me down.
Tonight I listen to this song and think about her. I feel like a pompous ass when I hear a song and it reminds me of someone, because I could see them saying those words to me.. I feel like it should usually be the opposite.. but I am pretty fond of myself, even if I fake otherwise well…
I know the pieces fit ’cause I watched them fall away.
Any time that a tool some comes on, my mind drifts away to somewhere else.
Last night as I was playing the lateralus album while my friend Joy was hanging out. I wouldn’t even notice my complete distraction. She would catch me staring off into space following the lyrics in my head which always leads me to think about something else. When she would ask what was wrong, i would say nothing and pretend it was nothing. She knew better and made me change the music.
and I also seem to be a bit into this one but it’s not my favorite
think i’m going for a walk now i feel a little unsteady
Today I had to go on another walk. I didn’t stop at the park like I normally do, because there were some kids playing there. I have listened to all of my Ani Difranco songs up until about the Ls at this point. This song hasn’t come up yet, but at 3 am this seems to make me feel better about something. I wish she wouldn’t blow me off the way that she does.
But I do look forward to seeing her again.
I was up above it
I’m the only one who’ll drown in my desire for you
It’s only fear that makes you run
The demons that you’re hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I’m the only one