I know the pieces fit ’cause I watched them fall away.

Any time that a tool some comes on, my mind drifts away to somewhere else.

Last night as I was playing the lateralus album while my friend Joy was hanging out. I wouldn’t even notice my complete distraction. She would catch me staring off into space following the lyrics in my head which always leads me to think about something else. When she would ask what was wrong, i would say nothing and pretend it was nothing. She knew better and made me change the music.

 

and I also seem to be a bit into this one but it’s not my favorite

Her email echos through my heart…

which seems to be much more pleasant than the craigslist post that echoed in my head last December.  One day things are going to change, I can feel it.. 

When I went on my lunch break from work, this was the song on the radio. You know that I blasted it in the parking lot.. shamelessly.

think i’m going for a walk now i feel a little unsteady

Today I had to go on another walk.  I didn’t stop at the park like I normally do, because there were some kids playing there.  I have listened to all of my Ani Difranco songs up until about the Ls at this point.  This song hasn’t come up yet, but at 3 am this seems to make me feel better about something.  I wish she wouldn’t blow me off the way that she does.


But I do look forward to seeing her again.

I’ve got your picture, he’s got you.

When I suddenly ended up with more free time than I knew what to do with, my friends tried to help.  Maddie had heard me talk about records.  I didn’t know much about them.  It was only in the last year that I ever sat down and listened to a record.  When she saw my interest peak, she gave me a small Jensen record player that she had extra.  It had internal speakers and she thought it sounded like shit.  I showed her the connections on the back and told her how to hook up real speakers to it but since she already had a better one, she said it was all mine.

I have collected some records from half priced books and bought a few from my friend that used to own the hemp store downtown.  Torie gave me my most recent record.  It’s called The Original 22 Countrypolitan hits.  It’s about as emotional as the greatest hits of Eddie Arnold that I bought because I used to listen to it with my grandma in the car.  I guess I had never had my heart broken at that time because I hear a lot more in these songs now.

I would be lying if I said each of those didn’t make me think of someone and cry just the slightest tear.