rumor has it, he’s the one i’m leaving you for….

Today when I was driving to get my hair cut, this song came on the radio.  The first verse cut deep.  It was one of those situations where I heard these words from someone else.. to that other someone else.  It kinda made me mad to be honest.  I never say anything, because – I only want her to be happy..

But if she thinks that I didn’t notice the change in where she wears her rings, I have to say, that I pay more attention than that..

The last part of the song, after it slows down, always makes me of think of something else, related, coincidentally.. like when I say most mean things out of passion.. It’s a bit rough to find yourself in some situations.  The last line – feels like a dagger.. if anyone likes to know about things like that.

I notice other things, but have more patience than most people.

As I couldn’t shake the first verse and then the last few words, I wondered where the song changes.. What’s up with the genders and why does it fit perfectly to me?  It probably shouldn’t work out that way…

The Lyrics that I had to go back and read to prove to myself that I wasn’t hearing things.. Rumor Has It

As I drove to the hair salon, for the first time – these lyrics had be staring into space…

She, she ain’t real,
She ain’t gonna be able to love you like I will,
She is a stranger,
You and I have history,
Or don’t you remember?
Sure, she’s got it all,
But, baby, is that really what you want?

Bless your soul, you’ve got your head in the clouds,
You made a fool out of you,
And, boy, she’s bringing you down,
She made your heart melt,
But you’re cold to the core,
Now rumour has it she ain’t got your love anymore

I was a bit caught off guard on how person I took the words.  Then as I pulled into my parking spot and started to turn off the car, it ended with:

But rumour has it he’s the one I’m leaving you for.

It must have been the trans that I was in, but I was stuck with a… “Hey wait a minute….. type feeling.”  I may never understand what that song just did, but it seemed to really get my attention.

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

There is so much that I could say about this, but I still decide it is best to stay as quite as possible. I know how I feel and its hard to ignore all the ideas that cross my mind. After an unexplained chain of events, each of our last names are on my mailbox. It’s something that will make me smile to myself each day that I check the mail, until I realize it is just a piece of paper in a mailbox. I’ve had the best, most confusing feelings. My desire to do right and my passion for her seem to conflict quite often.