But I’ve had a lack of inhibition

This morning something quite unexpected happened. I doubt that I will forget it so for now the details won’t be anywhere but in my heart but I will leave a few notes for myself for when I decided I need to know, years down the line.

Train       

To see a train in your dream represents conformity. You are just going along with what everyone else is doing. Alternatively, a train means that you are very methodical. You need to lay things out specifically and do things in an orderly and sequential manner. In particular, if you see a freight train, then it refers to the burdens and problems that you are hauling around. It is also symbolic of manual labor. If you see a passenger train, then it relates to mental work.

To dream that you are on a train symbolizes your life’s journey. It suggests that you are on the right track in life and headed in the right direction.  Alternatively, the dream means that you have a tendency to worry needlessly over a situation that will work out in the end.

Hair

To see hair in your dream signifies sexual virility, seduction, sensuality, vanity, and health. It is indicative of your attitudes. If your hair is knotted or tangled, then it is symbolic of uncertainty and confusion in your life. You may be unable to think straight. If you dream that you make a drastic change to your hairstyle, then it means that you are taking a drastic, new approach to some issue in your waking life.  

To dream that you are combing, stroking or styling your hair suggests that you are taking on and evaluating a new idea, concept, outlook, or way of thinking. You may be putting your thoughts in order and getting your facts straight. A more literal interpretation suggests your concerns about your self-image and appearance.  

To dream that you have long hair indicates that you are thinking long and carefully before making some decision. You are concentrating on some plan or situation. Dreaming that you have hair so long that it gets in your way suggests that your thoughts and/or ideas are preventing you from moving forward. Perhaps you are doing too much thinking and not taking any action. 

To dream that you are reaching for or running your fingers through someone’s hair suggests that you are trying to connect with that person on a spiritual or intellectual level. It also refers to sympathy, protectiveness, and fraternal love.

Today, I did and said things that I thought twice about, thought I should keep to myself but shared with her anyway. There was something in the back of my mind in my brother, Stephen’s voice, saying that I may never get the chance that I wait for. He would have told me to live in the moment if he was here and I saw him days before he died – so that changes ones perspective.

I told her about my dream and we were both a bit surprised when our dreams over lapped. That’s the only words that I have for it right now. My dream was quite life-like, the type that get my attention and are stuck echoing for days leaving me questioning if it actually happened or not. I couldn’t tell you where I was or what I was doing specifically. I can say that I know how I was laying in the dream, how I felt, who I was with and that I had started to fall asleep in the dream and it seemed as if I woke up for work as I fell asleep in my dream. It’s moments like this that remind me that there so so much more to life that I am giving it.

I started talking to Couch Boy about BladeRunner today and he said a few things about the premise and it made me want to see it even more and left me questioning how she would feel about BladeRunner 2049 or whatever year that new one is. I will find a moment to ask.

I’ve got better things to do than survive 
I’ve got the memory of your warm skin in my hands 
And I’ve got a vision of blue sky and warm land 
I’m cradling the hardest, heaviest part of me in my hands

AlbumLittle Plastic Castle

Gravity is nothing to me 
I’m moving at the speed of sound 
I’m just going to get my feet wet 
Until I drown

Songwriters: Ani Difranco

I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words

Last night, I fell asleep after listening to Elton John’s “Your Song” and then had my second vivid dream in a row.  I’m going to start keeping a record of my dreams in case I ever want to go back and reference them in the future.  In the past, when I have had dreams like this, I have always felt that turned out to be quite significant.  There is a difference between a normal dream that can be about anything and then the dreams that I have that I often confuse with reality for a moment or two, this was one of those dreams.


The dream started in my bedroom with a close friend of mine, and suddenly changed tones with a guy that I knew as Skyler came in to interrupt and scold my friend for being there claiming that her partner would not appreciate it.  She was quite defensive and he was obnoxious, she ended up leaving to go talk to said partner but returned shortly there after.

We spend most of the dream walking around and talking.

At some point, when I was alone, I was at walmart and I saw a large smartphone just sitting there on a shelf, so I picked it up and went to go turn it in to an employee.  The employee pretty much implied that I might as well take it because if I turned it in, an employee would just take it home and assured me that it would never make it back to its original owner.  I can’t say that I would do this in real life, but I put it in my bag and continued on.

Later in my dream, I attempted to give it to my friend, because I knew that she was unsatisfied with her current phone.  There was a crack in the screen across the top by this point, which hadn’t been there originally.  Somehow we never made it to her using the phone because I had all intentions of wiping it clean for her but then I somehow lost the phone myself.

We walked through a town square of a town that I was not familiar with.  There were people painting murals on the walls and we watched for a moment as we passed through.

At one point, we ended up at Walmart ourselves, together, but I couldn’t tell you why we were there or what we were doing.  Every time we would get somewhere and it was time to split up and go our separate ways, she would always come with me and walk me home.  We stayed together almost the entire dream.

The last part that I can remember, was us sitting on the top of a train car.  It reminded me of a open car that we had in my grandparents Lionel train set.

It looked like this one but it was life sized, we sat in it like a canoe, maybe that wouldn’t make it really life sized but we fit in it, one behind the other.

gondola

When I looked up this photo to give an example, I found out it was called a Gondola, which is funny because I kept saying it was kind of like a canoe but a train car..

We were sitting on ropes that were wrapped up in a circle and one must have fallen off because it started to unroll.  I warned her to be careful and that is the last that I remember of the dream.

She argued with this guy, Skyler, that seemed to know her partner, explaining that we were not hiding anything from anyone nor doing anything wrong.  She was really upset during this conversation and that is why she left.  The next time I saw her, it was not at the house, which seemed to be my brother’s house and Skyler was my brother’s roommate.  As it all happened, I could remember the first time that I had met this fictional Skyler person.  I told her that I had met him at this guy Mike V’s house back when I was in high school.  His appearance, Skyler, seems to be one of the most vivid images from the dream, besides the train.  He had dark hair that was cut in an emo type way.  He was so worried about what everyone else was doing and wouldn’t drop it.

In my posts, while recording my dreams, I will add excerpts from information that I find.  Over 10 years ago, maybe even 15 by now, I had a friend online that lived in Portugal.  She was so intrigued by my dreams, she would always encourage me to tell her and she would then help me pick them apart and analyze them.

14 Common Dreams and Symbols and Why They’re Important

The meaning of the name Skyler: Dutch meaning: Guarded; scholar, learned one. American meaning: The Sky.

Gondola

To see or ride in a gondola in your dream refers to romance, fantasy, and idealistic love. Things are going well in your relationship or some aspect of your waking life. Alternatively, a gondola indicates your need to take time off and go off on an adventure.

Touchscreen

To see or use a touchscreen in your dream implies that you need to take a more active or more hands-on approach in order to move forward in some endeavor.

Shopping

To dream that you are shopping symbolizes your needs and desires. It also represents opportunities and options that you come across in life. Consider what you are shopping for and what needs you are try to fulfill. In particular, to dream that you are shopping for food and groceries signifies your hidden attempt to buy the attention of others. If you are shopping for clothes, then it suggests that you are trying to put forth a new image.

Edit: 7/25/2019

I reread this dream after remembering it during my lunch break today due to another dream that could not be ignored. I realized that I totally missed the rope – that has got to be significant.

Rope

To see a rope in your dream represents your connection and attachment to others. It is symbolic of what is holding your relationship together. Alternatively, a rope signifies bondage, restriction and captivity.

To dream that you are walking on a rope indicates that you are in a very precarious situation. You need to proceed carefully and weigh all the pros and cons of your decisions. 

To dream that you are tied up in ropes suggests that you are letting your heart guide you, despite your better judgment.

And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day?

Today is my grandmother’s 83rd birthday, so I took off of work. This whole situation with K helps me put things with M into perspective somehow. Yesterday, I decided that I am not really frustrated with the individuates involved but its more about the larger problem. Now I am battling social and feminist issues. I have always tried to keep my personal beliefs out of it, but it seems that you can not separate such things.