Lately, I have felt like my emotions have been quite… present. I am not sure what to say about this, but I have found myself following in love with albums that touched my soul as I tried to figure things out just out of high school. Here I am, still trying to figure out how to act with other people.

I guess it doesn’t matter that I’m sayin’ that I love you
Because you don’t believe me anyway
But still I’m screaming that I love you and I’m driving myself crazy
And I’m making you insane

Doria Roberts, Restoration Album

You know, it is those silent moments that leave me in the deepest thought. I try my hardest to avoid it. I try to stay away from the sweetest words that I have ever read. There are all there in my email, but I don’t go back, because I am usually just embarrassed of myself. When I came across a screenshot from an email that she sent me on 7/20/2014, I only read her reply. I didn’t read the two I sent before or the one that I sent after, or I would just feel ridiculous, because I know that I am – but I feel like she understands. If she doesn’t, she tries her very best to. It doesn’t help me love her less.