On his birthday, she read my good morning message and then took a phone break for the rest of the day which left me alone to think and worry about how romantic their day might be. I didn’t so much mind her not talking to me – I am not like that, I just get so insecure when I know that she is spending his birthday with him with her phone off and I can’t even see her for five minutes. It just hurts and makes me feel really unimportant in her life. I know that will fade as soon as she starts being sweet to me, but which she is distant, it lingers over my head and makes me feel like she doesn’t take me seriously.

I have to say that the isolation that this year has not made it any easier.

On Friday, I hope that she was having fun – even with him… It just broke my heart to consider that they would be having a romantic evening alone.

I truly believe they are not in a relationship anymore and it’s not like that but the fear seems to still be very real. I just want to be important to her.