sexuality

I don’t have to pretend, she doesn’t expect it from me

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There are certain moments in our lives that make me see the progress. As long as I am moving forward, I am happy. We have had a history of… unconventional communication, to say the least. It had been about 2 weeks since we had gotten our hair cut together. I hadn’t really heard from her much, which is always hard on me. I am not sure how this song related at all, but it’s what is playing in my mind.

I feel like we get closer every day, even though I go weeks and sometimes months without even seeing her. Most of the talking is one sided but I truly believe that she likes my communication.. even though most would not agree with me.

Today I was reminded of how much I have grown up in the last 2 years.. I was at a local gas station.. read the condom wrapper next to me.. and I didn’t even puke.. exaggerated, maybe.. but yes, it happened. Then I contemplated sexuality and questioned my lack of desire.

Sexuality is a strange thing

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I read an interesting article today, unrelated to direct subjects, the reference and reaction of her ‘feminist husband’ is refreshing.

I Waited Until My Wedding Night To Lose My Virginity And I Wish I 

I try to be as open with her as possible.  Actually, I pretty much tell her everything that I can.  Still trying to figure out what I think about him.  Why I even think about him.  I suppose it’s because I am constantly reminded of him in her moments of extended silence.

Today I wrote her a deep email.  I told her about a recent, shocking dream, even though I couldn’t even get my description written out.  I mentioned December 17th to her.  Now I realize that remembering specific dates probably isn’t normal.  It’s a feared date or whatever ya call it. Not a happy one.  It is the day I realized what the internet could do.  It won.  I lost.

I also liked this article:

10 Ways Introverts Interact Differently With The World

I’d hang out with both of them, if that’s what it took.  I would  be as open-minded as possible hoping that he would be as sensitive as possible.  I have no reason to think that he wouldn’t.  I still hate his friends though.