Today, I got myself so worked up and I don’t even know how or why but I could not calm down for anything. It lasted all the way through work and even got me talked to at work. My boss did a very good job at not completely embarrassing me. He even complimented my normal calls which is exactly how to get me to do something. He was disappointing and not mad, which I respond to much better. I assured him that it wouldn’t happen again but I just still could not calm down.

My friend’s brother tested positive for covid 19 today and I was at his house yesterday. That introduced new fear in me. I was supposed to go see my sister and her kids today. Its my oldest niece’s 13th birthday today but I didn’t go because I was afraid that I could be carrying the virus once I heard he tested positive. He was getting tested so that he could return to the tour bus life with his band. They were all getting tested as a precaution – which didn’t work well for him, or maybe it did because he gets an extra week off of work. Fortunately, he has been getting paid this whole time, so I guess Shane Smith and the Saints have got it like that.

Towards the end of my day, I worked in a ‘just avoid him’ type statement to the lady and she responded in the best way. She really gets me and I want to be perfect for her one day – so I work on myself every day and try not to get overwhelmed like I do. Today was a rough day, but she had the nicest things to say to me and it really helped a lot.