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How do I know all the words?

• by admin • In Alternative, Country, Folk, Folk Rock, Grammy Nominee, Music •   0

Someday, YouTube will tell me how many times I have listened to these song – it if was a tape, I would have worn it out by now. At this point I am just clicking on my favorite suggestion to the rights for the next song. It is possible to sit here and do nothing else but listen to the toughest music that I could think to listen to. I check my phone more often than I should and tell myself that she is probably a sleep.

Well, you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
‘Cause you loved her too much, and you dived too deep

Passenger

I feel like I am only about two steps from Tailor Swift and I have already seen Sarah McLachlan grace the suggested list as if someone is picking the songs for me. It would be nice if these algorithms would just stop – I have seen The Social Network and its working.

Tonight is the first time I have heard this song in a different light.

I am supposed to work about 12 hours straight tomorrow but I can’t seem to force myself to go to bed.

And suddenly.. after the next song, I want to go to bed, I just hope she visits me in my dreams. I try not to ask much.

I wonder if she knows how much I fear July 27th after I spent to many hears missing her. I was walking on the inside of the square nearing her bakery at the time. I paused in my tracks – suddenly wondered if anyone could see me – felt like I was in a horrible movie and was in disbelief a that. She used words that scared me for her so I just backed of quickly but I just don’t think that I should do that anymore – but what can I even do?

Not really sure how to feel about it

• by admin • In Music, Pop, Soul music, TV •   0

I watching Grown-ish and this song came on.

I used to listen to this song a lot.

The episode that I watched included this:

and then there was this:

I have been stuck in my head thinking about what happened at the Pizza place.  I haven’t heard from her sense.  I’m afraid that either C noticed and is mad or she was hurt by seeing me with Maddie, which I think would be unlikely – because I am sure that she knows how I feel – but I can’t help but wonder or worry that I screwed up some how.

At least she reads my messages – I am just more concerned that something is wrong but I ignore it because I don’t want her to think I am weird.

And I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you

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I hate when this song is playing deep down inside. Tomorrow, I am having some dumb procedure and I am a bit nervous about it. People say it is nothing, but at this point, I am worried about what they could or could not find.

When I drive by her old house, there are tons of construction equipment parked in front. There’s something quite depressing about that.

I nearly cry every time I listen to this song. Since it came our in 2014 – it has always had the same effect on me, but right now it feels realer than it ever has before.

Then of course, YouTube brought these feelings back too. It knows what songs hurt best together.

I never meant to start a war

• by admin • In Blues, Music, Pop •   0

Skipping work to sleep all day sounds extremely expensive at this point in time. It’s complicated corporate bullshit since tomorrow is.. was a paid holiday. Whatever, health is important and I never miss work. The playlist that has worked itself into my day is quite repetitive.

The first time that I heard this song, I thought about her and it hit pretty hard. Back then – things were much different. I understood a lot less but still felt.. something was happening.

I had searched my last name and Slovania trying to get that former president’s name. It was when I was adding my dad and little brother on skype. Then I was curious enough to search my last name to see what other family members had skype accounts. I was suddenly reminded that the internet is not only nation wide and suddenly my name looked pretty normal next to theirs. I forgot what that lady’s name was so I searched that and found a hilarious parody of “Wrecking Ball.”

From there it was all down hill. My friend was here. She put up with me listening to this song next. We were discussing how we felt about these young ladies getting so naked so casually in music videos. Don’t get me wrong, I am as guilty as every other American enjoying these videos.. but I hate that I do. Out of curiosity, I had to research when that was and sources say August 2013, which was a confusing time for this lady. I’m adaptable. Now I expect it..

The youtube must have sensed my mood because after I listened to that song tonight, this popped up.

It was like it was reading my mind. Damn computer – quit reminding me how predictable I am. At least I have dealt with situations better this time. I don’t think that I have ever been able to consider anyone else’s feelings before. I am always reminded of simple text messages that put me back in my place. I never wanted to hurt her, at all.

In other news, I told my friend that I was over here about my brother’s snake bite situation 11 years ago. She teared up and felt it was Oprah worthy. I’d rather believe that anyone would help a family member the same. I wasn’t really the one helping but more of my grandmother. It was a bad day.. or while I guess you would say.

Not Really Sure How I Feel About It

• by admin • In Cover Song, Grammy Nominee, Music, Pop •   0

Some days seem harder than others.  I can never tell if its because of the silence.. what I put in my lungs that day.. the alignment of the stars… our ever lasting energy.. have I mentioned brain chemicals?

This post is a little different than most.  I’m not sure if I have posted this song yet, but I have been listening to it and even singing it out loud for more than a year now.  The other night my friend said it was about them being on meth or something… I just thought it meant she wanted him to stay the night… I hear what I want to in songs.  It’s been an ongoing theme in our relationship, where for the first time, I have hyper feminine feelings and she is the ultimate dude that doesn’t care.. What can I say, I cherish the two nights that I spent with her and with the next morning lasted a little long…

On to the music – the original version:

 

 

And now, the same song, remade by some people that I find quite impressive. This is the version that I used to listen to on spotify when I used to do that. I used to have play lists each month…. going back to those, they are kind of sad at times.

https://youtu.be/AR_zYrEpXz4

I hear something in ever line of this song…

Not really sure how to feel about it.

• by admin • In Music, Pop, Rock •   0

I couldn’t make this up if I tried…. I had to get a ride to work today when my car wouldn’t start – making it a 2nd Monday in a row to be late.  The first song on the radio was eerie and the second wasn’t any better.. to make me not want to run to her crying..

I usually try to be a little tougher than this in public, but the radio did it – not me.

 

It’s going on 2 AM and I am supposed to be at work by 8:30 so I better find a way to meet her in my dreams.

Sometimes I don’t want to be tough anymore. I can’t wait for the day that she touches me softly….