radio conspiracy

I don’t even think she knows how she moves me

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Everyone has known that I am gay since.. about when this song came out – but I don’t think many know that I am this kind of gay…

Though, no one would be too surprised.

and then just for fun before I go to bed..

Sometimes my brother reminds me that I am lucky that I am a lesbian – he is probably right. He doesn’t think men could get away with the things I do. Jamming out to these two songs before might be along those lines.

Those songs played on the radio as I walked to driver’s ed at my grandma’s house. My grandpa had just passed away unexpectdly. It was a strange time in my life. The most solid part of my life started to fall apart.

Here is a random one that came on afterward – seemed fitting.

I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

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Sometimes, I am just way too open with my lady friend.

Thing song always makes me think about the day that she was leaving.. I wanted to make her change her mind..

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This happens to be one of my favorite songs.. today, it’s making me think about her — for no particular reason at all.

As I drove home from work today, the song that I recently mentioned, Charlie Puth – One Call Away played on the radio.  It’s interesting because I had just heard it for the first time that day from YouTube.  Leave it to the radio conspiracy.

Has someone taken your faith?

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Let it be on record that I have never put myself out there so much i my life. So far, nothing too terrible has happened. She said yes… when I asked her to go to the movies. It doesn’t take much to turn my boring day around.

Today when I was adventuring off to find life, these songs made their way to my ears and heart. Fuckin 99.5.

followed by,

Now I am going to get onto doing my best, “I am pretty.. but not trying too hard because I know this is not a date…” impression. Dang, I miss anyone making me feel like this, even when I have absolutly no chance.. and couldn’t care less. She knows me.

just a few more..

if she only knew.

And I hope that you are having the time of your life but think twice, that’s my only advice

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I need to remember why I created this site in April.. and it was to leave her alone.  Ladies like to miss you once in a while.  I have been reminded of this more than once.

I can’t say that I have actually listened to this song before today.  I had heard it but never listened.  It spoke to me today on the way home for my lunch break….

Zombie by The Cranberries gave me a similar feeling months ago.

There is so much going on that I just want to talk about it, but I don’t even know who that right person would be.

Sometimes love don’t feel like it should

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Today, I faced my fears.. and gave her the card that was burning a hole in my pocket. She was perfectly sweet to me, just as I expected. My new computer watch was even noticed, I’d hate to tell her I have no idea how to use the thing. I hope it brightens her day and fills her heart with warmth. She looked a little sad, but I would never try to hold a whole conversation with someone at work. I kept it professional and then left.

This was the first song that I took note of on the radio this morning. I think that there was one on when I got in the car but it must not have been very impactful.

This morning before work, this image game me some hope, inspiration and all those important things.  It really made me think about security and the deepest of feelings for someone.  I never let society define me… or my love.

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So perhaps I should leave here

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The song must have started just as I got into the car to go to work, because it played nearly the whole way to work. I had found another song that I had heard a million times. but I had never listened.. Maybe because if had never meant a thing to me. There were a few lines that really stood out to me.. and I was convinced, once again, about the radio conspiracy.

At the time, I didn’t think there was a better song to explain how I felt. Then I had to come home on lunch and listen to one of my classic favorites. I stumbled across this lovely live version of “As Is” by Ani and the slight alterations made me smile, so here it is. At least she admits that she’s an asshole. Who am I to judge?