I feel like I am always smiling in one way or another when I read horoscopes or any astrology material on either of us. This past week I rediscovered an old book that someone had given me about 10 years ago. It’s called Born On A Rotten Day. While reading amounts my friends, we decided that the character flaws it pointed out in each of us seemed rather accurate. Tonight, when I came home from the bar, I started reading the first few pages about her zodiac. This section was specifically about Libra Males and more importantly, being in love with one.
The words drifted around in my mind and I accepted and rejected a few of the accusations, laughing at all of them the same and remembering things that she had said that only further confirmed…. things. Its just funny to me, on so many levels, but I may have to find the humor in order to ignore .. other things.
It was about time to set down the book, as people started to arrive, when I read a sentence that caused me to write paragraphs about nothing to myself on the internet. The line in the book read; “Whether his dimpled good looks outweigh his self-serving ego is your decision.” Like I tend to do, when I find something unbelievable, I read it a few times. It still seemed to say the same thing, there was that word again, self-serving, I had never even seen it before, until she spoke about — that first thing that I had to read over and over again – hoping that the context would suddenly change. Maybe I believe that I am such a poor reader, maybe I misunderstood the first time, but no, that’s what it says…
There I go, venturing off into completely off track. As one can see, it was one of the most shocking things that I had ever read on the internet, and well, this is where I get back to what I was trying to speak about to begin with.
After I looked at the word like it had done something personal to me, I thought.. her good looks and amazing personality will continue to melt my heart time and time again. It’s surprising and unlike me to go through such experiences and not hold one grudge or any bitterness. I have a few strange dreams, but they all end amazingly and happy. I’m not sure that I really have many people in my life anymore that realize it has been close to forever since I have ever even liked someone so much in my life.
I would read the word self-serving ego and smile… just because it makes me think of her. There’s a lot of things I seem to read in many different places about Libras… I don’t know that I have ever really believed in any of that but I know that it’s fun to read about, especially when you can’t get someone off your mind. I love my libra man.. and well, I don’t care what anyone has to say about that.. not my friends, not her boyfriend.. maybe not even her. For now, that’s something that I should only tell her in my dreams. I’m sure that she already knows.
