No Doubt

I don’t wanna look back in thirty years

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And wonder who you’re married to

Wanna say it now, wanna make it clear
For only you and God to hear
When you love someone
They say you set ’em free
But that ain’t gonna work for me

I don’t wanna live without you
I don’t wanna even breathe
I don’t wanna dream about you
Wanna wake up with you next to meI don’t wanna go down any other road now
I don’t wanna love nobody but you
Lookin’ in your eyes now, if I had to die now
I don’t wanna love nobody but you

I was just clicking through some new site and saw that there was some controversy between Adam Levine and Blake Shelton and when I took a second to read, the real news was that Blake Shelton was marrying Gwen Stefani. There was a slight moment on awkwardness when I thought back to 1996 but here are a few songs that I love and shaped my adolescence. When I listen to them, the emptions they bring really go back to a few core aspects of my life.

When I hear the song Austin, I nearly cry every time. This song came out in 2001 but I group it with all the other late 90s country music. Time blended together back then. I didn’t know true dedication and patience at the time but I have been spending nearly the last decade learning it and when I hear thing song, I just relate to my own life and situation. I can start about anywhere in this song and sing it – its always during the last message that my voice cracks.

I am so detached from the media these days that I had no idea that they were even dating – but Gwen.. she taught me a lot. Taught me to rebel against the conservative family and area that I was growing up in. No Doubt’s Tragic Kingdom and Jewel’s Pieces of You were the first CDs I owned and I feel like that shaped me a lot. Before that I had Collin Raye’s Extremes on tape and any Jimmy Buffet cassette that my dad owned.

When I entered lesbian (secret) lesbian relationships when I was about 15 years old – this would have been my theme song playing in my head as a specific mother wouldn’t let me go for a walk with her daughter because there was no boy present to protect us. It cut me pretty deeply. My dad didn’t do that crap to me thankfully.

I thought I knew you…

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Today, on my way to work, right before I arrived, Gwen Stefani graced my speakers with a long lost song – Sunday Morning.  I jammed out as if I was still in 7th grade, though I was driving.  The first 2 CDs that I ever owned were, No Doubt’s Tragic Kingdom and Jewel’s Pieces of You.  If you remember anything about CDs or I guess any album, is that sometimes.. most of the songs suck, so I didn’t listen to the Jewel CD in full very many times, but Tragic Kingdom is one of my all time favorites.


The more that I listened to the words, the more that I knew that I had to post it here.  Eventually I started questioning a few lyrics, like.. what the hell does, “You’re trying my shoes on for a change…” mean, but I got past it and was left with a few lingering thoughts that were luckily lost until now because of the hustle and bustle at work.  The more the song plays past that line, I realize that it actually has nothing to do with how I feel but there are a few lines that leave me reflecting.

Gwen didn’t always get my feelings right but she sure does have a pretty voice and I could listen to these songs forever.  As I was making this S curve near the rail road tracks, I thought.. what if I didn’t ask to see her that day, she wouldn’t have messaged me saying that she couldn’t see to talk to me anymore, again.

It’s been over 6 months and though I am lucky enough to have forgotten how long the longest has been in the past, but if anyone is concerned about her dedication and follow through, it was quite impressive and speaks loudly for her character. I may be paranoid, but I often worry,but that gets more complicated than I can articulate.

I left work early to go get the new plates for my vehicle.  It’s probably time that I get to that.

I would listen to that album on repeat in 1996 on a Discman that my grandparents bought me.  We were so cool and could skip songs if we wanted to. The sony headphones that came with it were awful.  They were the type with the foam that I am quite sure are no longer in production.

Don’t tell me cause it hurts

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This morning, I was day dreaming about the lady way too early.  I listened to some Adele, sent her a revealing email and by that I mean completely sincere and open – nothing that modern day society may think.

YouTube took me to Tracy Chapman and then No Doubt.  This is a song that I have known most of my life but today, I finally knew what it meant.  I had been there.  It described the last few years of my life.