This is my future dream date.
lesbian
I hope you had the time of you life
Does anyone want to know that I hung out with a guy from work tonight until about midnight.. and bought him dinner….
and I left her alone all night..
and a little of
Opportunity Cost.
I had too much fun with this app that I downloaded. This is one I did a week or two ago. We are a mighty team and I sure hope that she takes care of my little league shirt, I would never even let anyone else wear it. I bet she’s adorable. Last night I sent her an email, saying that I would stop…
I have her thoughts and feelings in mind. I don’t want to put her through more hell. The other day was national coming out day. I kept my lesbian comments to myself. Sometimes I get to a point where I think that I am ruining all of these women’s lives.. because they could all just go live normal, happy lives with men if it weren’t for me. I hate those feelings and thoughts.
It’s raining today and it’s taking me everything not to offer her a ride… or my car. I just want to send her a text and tell her that if she wants to take me to work she can use my car. I have never even done that before. I am such a push over… and I don’t even care.
Opportunity Cost.
rumor has it, he’s the one i’m leaving you for….
Today when I was driving to get my hair cut, this song came on the radio. The first verse cut deep. It was one of those situations where I heard these words from someone else.. to that other someone else. It kinda made me mad to be honest. I never say anything, because – I only want her to be happy..
But if she thinks that I didn’t notice the change in where she wears her rings, I have to say, that I pay more attention than that..
The last part of the song, after it slows down, always makes me of think of something else, related, coincidentally.. like when I say most mean things out of passion.. It’s a bit rough to find yourself in some situations. The last line – feels like a dagger.. if anyone likes to know about things like that.
I notice other things, but have more patience than most people.
As I couldn’t shake the first verse and then the last few words, I wondered where the song changes.. What’s up with the genders and why does it fit perfectly to me? It probably shouldn’t work out that way…
The Lyrics that I had to go back and read to prove to myself that I wasn’t hearing things.. Rumor Has It
As I drove to the hair salon, for the first time – these lyrics had be staring into space…
She, she ain’t real,
She ain’t gonna be able to love you like I will,
She is a stranger,
You and I have history,
Or don’t you remember?
Sure, she’s got it all,
But, baby, is that really what you want?
Bless your soul, you’ve got your head in the clouds,
You made a fool out of you,
And, boy, she’s bringing you down,
She made your heart melt,
But you’re cold to the core,
Now rumour has it she ain’t got your love anymore
I was a bit caught off guard on how person I took the words. Then as I pulled into my parking spot and started to turn off the car, it ended with:
It must have been the trans that I was in, but I was stuck with a… “Hey wait a minute….. type feeling.” I may never understand what that song just did, but it seemed to really get my attention.
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
There is so much that I could say about this, but I still decide it is best to stay as quite as possible. I know how I feel and its hard to ignore all the ideas that cross my mind. After an unexplained chain of events, each of our last names are on my mailbox. It’s something that will make me smile to myself each day that I check the mail, until I realize it is just a piece of paper in a mailbox. I’ve had the best, most confusing feelings. My desire to do right and my passion for her seem to conflict quite often.
too many words to share, i hope tomorrow is the Sunday that I have been waiting for
Before I go to bed and dream about… whatever it is that I can’t get off my mind… here are some ‘inspirational’ memes that I have saved over the last month or three. I feel like I can see some spelling errors already, but they make me laugh or smile.
Scars are souvenirs you never lose
This song means a lot to me, I have so many words for this post.
I wish that you could go to the show with me.
‘I am alone with my feelings and I can finish my thoughts’
Tonight an album that I used to listen to a lot crossed my mind. It was called Restoration by Doria Roberts. It doesn’t seem like I can find most of my favorite songs from that cd but ‘Nothing Sold, Nothing Bought‘ (Listen to) was the song that I thought about when I looked at the clock and say that it was 3 am, but it was a completely different song that I was actually thinking of. I ended up listening to ‘Thinking of You‘ (YouTube) which was.. not something I was specifically looking for but suiting.
Doria Roberts is most famous for her song ‘Perfect‘ and is one of my all time favorites.
The song that lead me to thinking about all of the above songs was actually called ‘Dying Man’s Wish‘ (YouTube) and I was completely wrong about the lyrics that made me think of it all from the start. The line is “It’s 5 AM and I’m drinking coffee with my girlfriend.” It was only 3 AM so… I should have been thinking about Matchbox 20 all along.
I have no idea why that song is titled that. I feel like I am going to be awake for a while.