Last night, I had a dream that we drove a van Uhaul off into a “Ring of Fire” eclipse.
I had been telling her that it was called the Ring of Fire Eclipse and that I was going to call it the Johnny Cash Eclipse.
When I went to go leave for work 30 minutes later than I normally would, I started my car to find this song playing. I got the cheesiest grin on my face suddenly.
She recently told me that she had a dream that we bought a house in the town that we recently met up in. My heart went wild just hearing that. I haven’t seen her since but I have been fightingh terribly.
And I will need to come back to another cover to this song – it get’s me everytime.
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This morning on the way to work, as I was reliving a moment in my my past over and over again, this song came on. Its the second time that I have heard it on the radio recently.
Today in my thought drifting – I ended up at a day that we spent at my house. One of the most passionate days in my life. As she melted into me, I tried my best to control myself and knew that she was already struggling with the intensity that we had found – so though that day, I wanted to tell her how much I loved her, it trickled out with a, “I care about your deeply” and I sure as hell still do.
Well – actually, the other song I heard may have been:
and then on the way back home on my lunch break – I heard one of those new country songs that kept me listening though I typically can’t stand these songs that all sound the same to me.
Now I get to use her famous line – I usually listen to harder music than this..
Tonight, as I was aimlessly clicking around on the Internet and reading things that don’t matter – I realized that someone that has been on my friend’s list for a while seems to be a professional musician. That’s kind of cool, so I decided to look into her music.
I am pretty sure that I mat her through an Ani DiFranco group but who knows. She had posted something about her bus that was stolen 6 years ago and it was a 70s model VW so I watched it. Then she talked about touring a lot. After a search or two I heard a few songs but enjoyed the Johnny Cash cover the most.
Also, last night was a moment in history – but that’s between me and the future.
I have been thinking about the way that I reacted on Monday to the implication that I might ever be sad. Tonight, I decided that it might be because I would much rather concentrate on my excitement for the future and would never want anyone to know that I might have a few rough moments along the journey. Plus, when I read the last thing that she said the next morning – it reminded me, that I might be a bit defensive, due to a handful of people interjecting their uninvited opinion about something they knew nothing about. Luckily, I could care less what most people think.
My grandma is still confused why I dated someone with 2 children with different dads – which I really appreciated. Most people wanted to know why I was with a complete bitch or with someone.. with such a different body type and I pretty much feel like I must have been running away from my feelings and tonight – I had a bit of a rough day, but it ended magically.
Tonight, holds a very special place in my heart.
That is all.
3.5 Decades in T minus 23 Hours 36 Minutes.
Well Add 6 hours and 34 minutes to that according to this birth balloon hanging over my desk.
And I am going to sleep happy – excited about the future.
doday, 101 X reminded me that Johnny Cash could put Trent Reznor in his place any day. This is only a compliment, I love Nine Inch Nails and I have a lot of respect for it all, when I was in high school, I didn’t understand and I was offended that a country singer would attempt a Nine Inch Nails song. A decade later, I hear it on the radio and it says something new that I have never heard before. I never thought that I would be the liar.
I must just be emotional today because the next song was Oasis’s Champagne Supernova which is another song that I have hear thousands of times, but it also seemed to send a message. Every day I feel like I learn something new about emotions. I wonder if I will ever understand.
Back in high school, I wasn’t really aware that Johnny Cash was a bad ass. I grew up in the country and despised much of the culture. It didn’t help that society had perpetuated that.
