Adele

I never meant to start a war

• by admin • In Blues, Music, Pop •   0

Skipping work to sleep all day sounds extremely expensive at this point in time. It’s complicated corporate bullshit since tomorrow is.. was a paid holiday. Whatever, health is important and I never miss work. The playlist that has worked itself into my day is quite repetitive.

The first time that I heard this song, I thought about her and it hit pretty hard. Back then – things were much different. I understood a lot less but still felt.. something was happening.

I had searched my last name and Slovania trying to get that former president’s name. It was when I was adding my dad and little brother on skype. Then I was curious enough to search my last name to see what other family members had skype accounts. I was suddenly reminded that the internet is not only nation wide and suddenly my name looked pretty normal next to theirs. I forgot what that lady’s name was so I searched that and found a hilarious parody of “Wrecking Ball.”

From there it was all down hill. My friend was here. She put up with me listening to this song next. We were discussing how we felt about these young ladies getting so naked so casually in music videos. Don’t get me wrong, I am as guilty as every other American enjoying these videos.. but I hate that I do. Out of curiosity, I had to research when that was and sources say August 2013, which was a confusing time for this lady. I’m adaptable. Now I expect it..

The youtube must have sensed my mood because after I listened to that song tonight, this popped up.

It was like it was reading my mind. Damn computer – quit reminding me how predictable I am. At least I have dealt with situations better this time. I don’t think that I have ever been able to consider anyone else’s feelings before. I am always reminded of simple text messages that put me back in my place. I never wanted to hurt her, at all.

In other news, I told my friend that I was over here about my brother’s snake bite situation 11 years ago. She teared up and felt it was Oprah worthy. I’d rather believe that anyone would help a family member the same. I wasn’t really the one helping but more of my grandmother. It was a bad day.. or while I guess you would say.

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only

• by admin • In Blue-Eyed Soul, Grammy Nominee, Music, Pop •   0

I painted a birthday card for her, or more like I painted on one.. it couldn’t be more perfect, if you ask me. Which leads to the next perfect thing:

and then my phone played this next:

On that note, I have never seen the notebook but I have heard that it is an incredibly romantic movie. Some people say I am a bit romantic.. though, I always wonder what she actually thinks about it all. It’s all – a little – irregular….

rumor has it, he’s the one i’m leaving you for….

• by admin • In Grammy Nominee, Music, Pop •   0

Today when I was driving to get my hair cut, this song came on the radio.  The first verse cut deep.  It was one of those situations where I heard these words from someone else.. to that other someone else.  It kinda made me mad to be honest.  I never say anything, because – I only want her to be happy..

But if she thinks that I didn’t notice the change in where she wears her rings, I have to say, that I pay more attention than that..

The last part of the song, after it slows down, always makes me of think of something else, related, coincidentally.. like when I say most mean things out of passion.. It’s a bit rough to find yourself in some situations.  The last line – feels like a dagger.. if anyone likes to know about things like that.

I notice other things, but have more patience than most people.

As I couldn’t shake the first verse and then the last few words, I wondered where the song changes.. What’s up with the genders and why does it fit perfectly to me?  It probably shouldn’t work out that way…

The Lyrics that I had to go back and read to prove to myself that I wasn’t hearing things.. Rumor Has It

As I drove to the hair salon, for the first time – these lyrics had be staring into space…

She, she ain’t real,
She ain’t gonna be able to love you like I will,
She is a stranger,
You and I have history,
Or don’t you remember?
Sure, she’s got it all,
But, baby, is that really what you want?

Bless your soul, you’ve got your head in the clouds,
You made a fool out of you,
And, boy, she’s bringing you down,
She made your heart melt,
But you’re cold to the core,
Now rumour has it she ain’t got your love anymore

I was a bit caught off guard on how person I took the words.  Then as I pulled into my parking spot and started to turn off the car, it ended with:

But rumour has it he’s the one I’m leaving you for.

It must have been the trans that I was in, but I was stuck with a… “Hey wait a minute….. type feeling.”  I may never understand what that song just did, but it seemed to really get my attention.

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

• by admin • In Blue-Eyed Soul, Grammy Nominee, Pop, Soul music •   0

There is so much that I could say about this, but I still decide it is best to stay as quite as possible. I know how I feel and its hard to ignore all the ideas that cross my mind. After an unexplained chain of events, each of our last names are on my mailbox. It’s something that will make me smile to myself each day that I check the mail, until I realize it is just a piece of paper in a mailbox. I’ve had the best, most confusing feelings. My desire to do right and my passion for her seem to conflict quite often.