What’s He Doing in My World?

I went to another baby shower for another cousin.  As I put my records away, trying to figure out which way should be up, I decide to send an email.  While composing that email, I remember inviting her to my other cousin’s baby shower.  She gave me the realest answer, which is all I ever wanted.  She was too shy in a way and baby showers weren’t really her thing.. I wanted to remind her that they weren’t really my thing either – but I knew how my family would react if a brought a female guest, so I understood and went alone.

The last record that I put on the shelf before I sent the email was The Magic of Eddie Arnold.  My grandma used to play his tapes in the car when we went on long road trips.  He might be the most famous for “Cattle Call” but my favorite songs are below.  Sometimes I wonder how M and T feel about the woman in my life.. I am sure they could care less, but what if I am wrong?

All of my friends call me crazy, for actin’ the way that I do

Yesterday this record made it onto the record player.  She may see how I feel in my eyes..  Maybe I seem as calm and composed and I try so hard to do.  Everyday, I put my best intentions first, so that I won’t regret anything again.

The album continued to surprise me.  This was actually the second song that had caught my every wandering attention, the first one was called, “You Don’t Know.” Even though, you probably do, because I tell her everything.. usually, purposeful or accidental.

Updated: March 2018 – Image

I’ve got your picture, he’s got you.

When I suddenly ended up with more free time than I knew what to do with, my friends tried to help.  Maddie had heard me talk about records.  I didn’t know much about them.  It was only in the last year that I ever sat down and listened to a record.  When she saw my interest peak, she gave me a small Jensen record player that she had extra.  It had internal speakers and she thought it sounded like shit.  I showed her the connections on the back and told her how to hook up real speakers to it but since she already had a better one, she said it was all mine.

I have collected some records from half priced books and bought a few from my friend that used to own the hemp store downtown.  Torie gave me my most recent record.  It’s called The Original 22 Countrypolitan hits.  It’s about as emotional as the greatest hits of Eddie Arnold that I bought because I used to listen to it with my grandma in the car.  I guess I had never had my heart broken at that time because I hear a lot more in these songs now.

I would be lying if I said each of those didn’t make me think of someone and cry just the slightest tear.