TV

Not really sure how to feel about it

• by admin • In Music, Pop, Soul music, TV •   0

I watching Grown-ish and this song came on.

I used to listen to this song a lot.

The episode that I watched included this:

and then there was this:

I have been stuck in my head thinking about what happened at the Pizza place.  I haven’t heard from her sense.  I’m afraid that either C noticed and is mad or she was hurt by seeing me with Maddie, which I think would be unlikely – because I am sure that she knows how I feel – but I can’t help but wonder or worry that I screwed up some how.

At least she reads my messages – I am just more concerned that something is wrong but I ignore it because I don’t want her to think I am weird.

Everyone needs a change ever now and then

• by admin • In TV, TV Show •   0

Today. I was working on a spreadsheet for work while “Arthur” the cartoon played in the background. The 3 year old sat on the floor coloring and suddenly the TV show caught my attention. I stopped what I was doing to watch and starred blankly at the TV.

I started to write a message attempting to describe the scene that I had just watch and then I realized that the only reason that we are watching this is because it is a rerun on KLRN.  My friend gave me a TV and then my dad gave me an antenna or I wouldn’t have TV service.. but after that chain of events I can watch TV with the rest of the world and the rest of the world.. saw that episode today.  I’m left wondering and wishing for the best for everyone.

It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to

• by admin • In Music, Pop Rock, TV, TV Show, Words •   1

Why do I even care if T told me happy birthday before she did… She surprised me last year and I’m still holding my breathe.. and fighting my urge for pizza… and failing. I wonder if I piss her off… or could she find it romantic too? I’ve never feel like this before.

I want to learn how to make videos like this:

I wouldn’t dare tell anyone else that I downloaded Premiere… and stared at it for a minute. It was almost as overwhelming. How did this happen?

It amazes me – how the mind works. How do is it that over 10 years after I graduated, I start thinking about how he was moved into my algebra I class half way through the year in 7th grade with a bunch of other guys. Our class was all female before that. That was the first time he interrupted my energy.. They sat in the back at this long table. Why do I think about these things?

Internal battles are something else. I try to stay away from lifehouse, since, you know, I don’t want to get beat up – but it’s pretty much how I feel today. The only thing that I want to do is spend time with her.