I just want something I can never have

I left a concert once because I was feeling sick, the next act was Flyleaf, but I didn’t know who they were.  I saw Kill Hannah, a band that is probably not around anymore.  This morning when I was looking for a song to listen to, I stumbled upon this gem.  It reminded me of the time I missed out on seeing a bad ass show by taking the easy way out.. I’m not sure why I think that’s pretty relivant.  I guess it’s one of the small things that I’ve always regretted.  I prefer the Trent Reznor version, but she’s easy on the eyes.

updated video link June 2023

You held your breathe and the door for me

Today I got the biggest surprise, and loved every minute of it.  Even if I did keep talking and say everything that came to mind without filter, whatever, that’s me.  Tonight I am listening to a lot happier music than normally.  Ani Difranco isn’t specifically sad but it discusses political issues, even subtily that are just too real and tend to get me down.

Tonight I listen to this song and think about her.  I feel like a pompous ass when I hear a song and it reminds me of someone, because I could see them saying those words to me.. I feel like it should usually be the opposite.. but I am pretty fond of myself, even if I fake otherwise well…