Alternative rock

Alternative rock is a style of rock music that emerged from the independent music underground of the 1980s and became widely popular in the 1990s. In this instance, the word “alternative” refers to the genre’s distinction from mainstream rock music.

When everything’s made to be broken

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I know that it’s crazy to watch instagram psychics give collective readings but I do it anyway.

Molly’s reading today

“I don’t want to let you go
I don’t know what you want
I need security
I don’t react when people mention you
I want to start over
I am not over you
I am in a committed relationship
I wish I could take back my words
I still have feelings for you”

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And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain

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I try to keep my longing to myself, as I know that she does not want to hurt me in anyway.

This song always gets to me and leaves my mind wandering in so many directions. There’s this duplex that we have made a thing out of, she probably has no idea just how much she melts my heart.

The story behind that would take for too many characters to explain and still would not make sense so I will skip that since I know that the story will forever live in my heart. It started for over a decade ago when I noticed that graffiti repair resembled a fun little ink blot on the wall, I lived a block away, so I passed it every day for the next several years. I don’t even know what made me mention it to her, ever so casually, and she lit up like I understood her and it was the warmed feeling that I could never describe. I’m really terrible at trying not to overreact in those moments, so in my over analyzing of every situation, I have come to the conclusion that I under react in a tremendous way, just trying to be normal and having no idea where that baseline is.

When I walk to that house to set things on the light near the wall that I once jumped, I typically park on Allen Street. While I walk up the steep hill, I divert my eyes as I always had in the past. I can’t help but think about the years I spent climbing in that window, with permission, but now, I try not to even look at that house. Such a small town with way too many people… and countless memories.

The first few lines get me there and just take me away.

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And I’ll be your cryin’ shoulder

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As I take one day at a time, over and over again, I create mixed tapes in my head to her. I have been singing many of these songs to her long before I even knew who she was.

There was a point in time that I thought every song on this list was ridiculous, I couldn’t understand a few lines here or there. The lines that sound like exaggeration feel all too real now.

Here are the 90s pop songs playing on my radio. A few may drift from that decade and genre but they fit there to me.

This is just a darling way to bounce back from all of those emotions:

This might be the sound track to my life. I remember the moment and action that go with a few of these lines. When I just wanted her to know who I was – I started writing and never stopped.

Let me tell you about middle school dances… life was never pleasant for me but I don’t talk about that.

That’s god with a lowercase g, the concept.

We are going to continue down R&B lane for a moment so forgive me for that. I have been singing the next two songs a lot but I go got the John Michael Montgomery version as it is much easier for me to achieve. Well, I only sing it when I am alone, no one would want to hear all that.

All-4-One was one of my first CDs after Tragic Kingdom and Pieces of You, which I had received as Christmas gifts that year. My older cousin traded me a very scratched up All-4-One CD for who knows what, surely I got ripped off but that is where I first heard these two songs. That same year, a country artist covered them so I would hear the same songs in a country version on the radio with my grandparents – it was a confusing time and I didn’t understand why. (The reason was $$)

I realize that this 90s mix is quite cheesy but who could expect anything else. This is about the sentiment which is lightly scattered all over the place. Without further ado:

Oh how I loved this song as a teenager with no one to directed it to.

There are a few pop songs that I thought were so ridiculous that I couldn’t even listen to them. They fell into the Aqua – Barbie Girl category in my mind. When they grace my 90s station these days, I will admit, I listen to them and my thoughts drift – once again, the odd lyrics suddenly make a little sense. Brace yourself for bubblegum pop.

One more and I will climb out of this rabbit hole.

So I guess if I could say anything to her – it would be all of that. Another song that I have caught myself listening to when it comes on is one that I felt was the most over played song of my life:

I’ll wrap this up and get back to reality. For the next and final song in this series, it will be hard to believe that I had not heard it before a few years ago after she used ‘Round here’ in a very impactful text message. It seems as though it has been around for over 30 years so I may have just over looked it but when it comes on these days – I stop – I listen and I try my hardest to come up with a plan that will work.