Last night, I had the hardest time falling asleep.
I’ve been struggling with thinking about the fact that she is probably sleeping next to him every night and it’s been more agonizing than normal.
Pop
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Listen to my voice, it’s my disguise. I’m by your side
Oh how does this random psychic say so many specific things? I can not possibly see so much meaning in every damn video I watch of hers. At first I was like, whatever, I’ll enjoy this adorable video and with to believe in it because it is fun and then she says a phrase that is on my stop me in my tracks list and I don’t know why she would say ‘right some wrongs’ but she did and it kinda of creeped me out. Is this a phrase people really used? It creeped me out the first time I hear it and it was a very impactful moment in my life – so I just chalk it up to being something I don’t really like to hear.
Well this random human on the internet that tells me about my love life is hilarious, so I am glad that she is at least entertaining because somehow she has captured my interest – but I would be hesitant to let anyone actually know that.
Your love is better than chocolate
Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
I’ve heard them calling my name
Is this the sweet sound that call’s the young sailors
The voice might be one and the same
I’ve heard it too many times to ignore it
Its something that I’m supposed to be
Someday we’ll find it
The Rainbow Connection
Some nights, when I catch myself listening to Sarah McLachlan, I want to tell her that all of her songs aren’t heart-wrenching, but I might actually be wrong about that. They do pull at my heart strings.
I’ll tell her when we are cuddled up in bed and Better than Chocolate is ending, then I will know that I have found my moment.
Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen
It’s been a long few days and I am just holding my breath and trying not to worry about her. She has been on vacation for a few days and I am not really sure how long she will be gone. I can’t imagine that her work would let her off for very long. I was doing just fine and we were exchanging messages each morning and night and then at some point yesterday Tam started to worry about her and ask me questions – Tam doesn’t know how to be soft and gentle with me – so she just starts throwing it all out there and telling me about random cards she pulled about M – she doesn’t even know her but I guess I radiate enough energy, all of my friends practically believe that she is my future gf as much as I do – so they treat her as such.
She started asking me a lot of questions about her vacation that I just didn’t have the answers to. She asked me if she was in control or was along for the ride – told me they seemed lost or confused about their destination. She asked me who she was with and I knew none of it. I explained to her that I don’t ask most questions because I trust her to tell me what she wants to tell me and I never want to make her feel like she has to lie to me – so I would rather just not know.
When she didn’t get online last night after my emotions were stirred a little, I tried not to let it bother me. I was out with my friends but grew heavily distracted when I didn’t hear from her – I thought it was ridiculous so I tried not to think much of it or bother her with my concerns. Tam’s words were just all coming back to me and I started to wonder if there was any truth in it. A vacation where he and she are travelling by car is the last thing my nerves need right now, but instead of talking about the way I dig myself into emotional holes – I will just remain calm and watch vigilantly.
I’m on your magical mystery ride
Sometimes a song plays on accident and then I can’t stop listening to it. I would never actually call anyone ‘Crazy’ as I think that is insanely damaging and is a pretty damn offensive word. Let’s just say that I have been called crazy plenty and it was never okay.
However, almost every other word speaks to me.
In unrelated magic – this song comes from up to time
Reason will not lead to solution
When this song was popular, it was nearly as popular as the macarena. Its weird to think of a generation that didn’t have to skate to that. I promise not to post Wanna Be by the Spice Girls but I will throw in one more from that era.
I was watching The Craft way too much this year. Avoiding both of those songs like the plague. It will be a few more years before I actually kiss a girl – but it’s steadily approaching. Does this sound like middle school dances to everyone?
And I will swallow my pride
What would she think if she could see me right now.. she’d be impressed that I could scream every word to these terrible songs that I have listened to since I owned my first CD…
and I do know.. deep down inside, she would be rooting for me.
but I am still crumbling.
YouTube picked every one of these damn songs – which only proves that I was never cool – only, extremely excited.
I stopped it after that one because it freaked me out. I have seen The Social Network and the way my random poems have changed is really fucking weird. A post with those to come because I have been saving them just because its unbelievable. I guess you notice what is on your mind.
