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As large as life she stood there

• by admin • In Calypso, Country, Country pop, Folk Rock, Music, Pop, Pop Rock, Rock •   0

It had been a good while since I had talked to her last.  Almost exactly a month, because the first day that I hung out with the gf, I told her about how I had gotten drunk the night before.  I am way too honest.  I explained why I was upset, what I said and how she didn’t say much.  She reassured me the next day but then we didn’t talk again until this weekend.  This song came on in my dad’s truck sometime last week.  It reminded me that I probably… that I won’t be going to visit her next month as I had planned.. its about 2 weeks away.  It’s been three years.  My new girlfriend was helping me clean my room.. and mentioned my calendar that is left on July 2013.. These are the moments that get me in trouble.

Don’t ask what happened next…

• by admin • In Alternative rock, Music •   2

Last night, I got drunk with my friends and texted he   r to the point where I felt irritating as fuck but it may have just been her quick response.  That made me think that I should go get sandwiches with my friends this morning. I stopped in the local record shop and picked up the album, Sleeping With Ghosts by Placebo.  Most of my records have been bought used, so I liked being able to get one of my favorite albums.

When I parked my car, I saw that his car was there too.  I was slightly shaken but I told myself that I would be fine.  When I walked into the record store, I was trying to help me calm my nerves in there and when I came across that album, I knew it was just the thing.  I bought it while I waited for my friends to meet me and then we went over there.

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We both tipped him well that day and he brought us jalapeno poppers.  I don’t think that I have seen him since.  The next day, I went to a co-workers house to hang out.  I had no idea what was about to happen when I met her baby.  …She seemed straight and I thought that she needed friends.. 

Nobody’s Perfect.. Trust Me I’ve Heard It

• by admin • In Blue-Eyed Soul, Grammy Nominee, Hard Rock, Industrial rock •   0

Tonight, I feel like I made an ass out of myself in front of the lady.. and by in front of — I mean that I sent her a text message that I questioned later – or 10.  Drinking is bad m ‘kay.  When you are sitting in a bar and something makes your think.. I should text the lady that I can’t get off my mind.. this text about an email that I sent her almost 2 years ago.. Don’t.  You might spend the next forever and a half wondering what she is thinking.

Maybe I’m all messed up
Maybe I’m all messed up
Maybe I’m all messed up in you

I Grow Fonder Everyday Day,
Loose Myself in Time
Just Thinking of Your Name

I expected summer to be there in the morning

• by admin • In Folk Rock, Indie Folk •   0

Jeremyville06The first time that I heard this, I listened in amazement and then watched a falling star.  I made a wish as I saw it falling towards her house.  I have forgotten what my exact wish was but I always try to be specific so that something weird wouldn’t happen.. I can imagine that my wish may have been something like, “I wish that she will do what makes her truly happy, no matter who she ends up with, I just want to know that she loves me.”  I look back at that night, often.  I wonder what I wished and how much of it has come true since then.  She was in San Francisco at the time to see a band.

When she landed, she sent me a text to let me know that she arrived safely.  The next text said something like, we should live her someday… Since I have been in love with her for about as long as I can remember at this point, my heart melted all over the place and I never forgot that moment in time.

Don’t tell me cause it hurts

• by admin • In Alternative rock, Grammy Nominee, Music •   0
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This morning, I was day dreaming about the lady way too early.  I listened to some Adele, sent her a revealing email and by that I mean completely sincere and open – nothing that modern day society may think.

YouTube took me to Tracy Chapman and then No Doubt.  This is a song that I have known most of my life but today, I finally knew what it meant.  I had been there.  It described the last few years of my life.

I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

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Sometimes, I am just way too open with my lady friend.

Thing song always makes me think about the day that she was leaving.. I wanted to make her change her mind..

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This happens to be one of my favorite songs.. today, it’s making me think about her — for no particular reason at all.

As I drove home from work today, the song that I recently mentioned, Charlie Puth – One Call Away played on the radio.  It’s interesting because I had just heard it for the first time that day from YouTube.  Leave it to the radio conspiracy.

Falling is like this

• by admin • In Alternative rock, Folk Rock, Indie Folk, Indie Rock, Music, Rock •   0

I woke up and started crying within 20 minutes. Today seems extra sensitive. I took a walk to clear my mind and just cried more. She is such a big part of my life and i miss her so much. Today, i am less tough.

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Feels like reckless driving when we’re talking
It’s fun while it lasts, and it’s faster than walking
But no one’s going to sympathize when we crash
They’ll say “you hit what you head for, you get what you ask”
and we’ll say we didn’t know, we didn’t even try
one minute there was road beneath us, the next just sky

I don’t even know where to go next.