Oh my life is changing everyday

Since it was Valentine’s day, I spent time with the woman that I love most – my grandma. On the way to her house, I heard a song on the radio that caught my attention. It was about half way through the song when I realized that it must be called “In The Air Tonight” by Phil Collins, because I recognized a line that took me back to “Stan” by Eminiem. It’s funny that I have watched the movie “Kids” and related this song to Eminiem.. it’s just unexpected to learn anything from Marshall Mathers.

I really have no idea what that song is about but the first few lines spoke to me, then I realized it was the song that was referenced in “Stan” and I have always loved that song. I used to watch the “Guilty Conscience” video way too often too.

Today, when I was talking about going to see a friend after I left her house – she said, “That’s something you have a lot of – friends, that’s really good.” She married when she was 16 years old. She feels like she missed out on a lot in life – and I know that having her own personal friends is one of them. She is a twin so if it wasn’t her sister, it was her husband. She has no idea how much my friends help me get through. There are moments when I feel like no one cares and no one understands and that everything is pointless – and just at the right moment, someone steps back in my life and reminds me that I am worth it.. and that everything is just circumstantial. It makes a big difference. Never underestimate how much a few words might help someone on such a deep level.

When this video came out, I thought that it was so great. My life has changed a little, however, it is still entertaining.

The next song that I paid attention to while driving to my grandma’s house was The Cranberries.

Then I came home and my brother was singing a personal favorite of ours.

You know my heart’s a stereo that only plays for you

Today when I was on my way to work, one of my favorite cheesy songs came on. I emailed her the first day that I heard the song on the radio and told her that it made me think of her. From what I know it’s been out for a while but I heard it for the first time about a year ago.

No matter how I feel about our situation, when I hear this song, I get so excited and smile and remember why I think she’s so perfect for me… I’m gay like that.

One of my favorite lines is “And all I ask is that you don’t get mad at me, when you have to purchase mad D batteries”

It would be so hard to put my feelings into words about this song but that line reminds me of … well, how much trouble I can be.. I hear “Dating men is so much simpler”  Since when was simple better.  I’ll keep my D batteries, thanks.