Just want to start this over

I am left with this energy about me, every time that I see her… or ever talk to her. It’s a nice change when I fel like its hard to get excited about much sometimes.

cant help it

When I saw the image above, I thought about her and had to save it. My desktop is full of images that make me think about her; not that I need any reminder, but people say it’s cute.. or something like that. I guess I am sensitive after all.  I think I have been doing well at keeping a balance and control of those emotions that get so carried away so easily.

I had not seen her in months, she started to talk to me again, maybe she could see my progress from a distance.  It’s nice to feel trusted.  The words she uses reminds me that its not me that she doesn’t trust.. or something like that.  Life never gets less complicated.

Updated video link June 2023

I know the pieces fit ’cause I watched them fall away.

Any time that a tool some comes on, my mind drifts away to somewhere else.

Last night as I was playing the lateralus album while my friend Joy was hanging out. I wouldn’t even notice my complete distraction. She would catch me staring off into space following the lyrics in my head which always leads me to think about something else. When she would ask what was wrong, i would say nothing and pretend it was nothing. She knew better and made me change the music.

 

and I also seem to be a bit into this one but it’s not my favorite