Grammy Nominee
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Not Really Sure How I Feel About It
Some days seem harder than others. I can never tell if its because of the silence.. what I put in my lungs that day.. the alignment of the stars… our ever lasting energy.. have I mentioned brain chemicals?
This post is a little different than most. I’m not sure if I have posted this song yet, but I have been listening to it and even singing it out loud for more than a year now. The other night my friend said it was about them being on meth or something… I just thought it meant she wanted him to stay the night… I hear what I want to in songs. It’s been an ongoing theme in our relationship, where for the first time, I have hyper feminine feelings and she is the ultimate dude that doesn’t care.. What can I say, I cherish the two nights that I spent with her and with the next morning lasted a little long…
On to the music – the original version:
And now, the same song, remade by some people that I find quite impressive. This is the version that I used to listen to on spotify when I used to do that. I used to have play lists each month…. going back to those, they are kind of sad at times.
I hear something in ever line of this song…
How the hell’s this ache ever gonna die
Today is the first time I have heard this song.
You’ve been looking for something that’s not in your life
My heart melted when the first thing that she said to me from California was that we should move there… okay, it was the second, she told me when she landed safely. I am fortunate to have her in my life. Parts of this video look like something I would do – the cinder blocks with tiny things displayed on them. I love singing this song out loud. Lately, I have started singing the “the mist that covers your eyes” part in front of my friends when it comes on. The sincere smile that I get.. lets me know that everyone knows that my intentions are true. I have never been an unethical or immoral person, so I stuggle with a few things from time to time.
Like – why am I concerned with if he knows who I am or not. I mean, I am sure that he does unless drugs have gotten to him, if I had a beautiful woman in my life, maybe I could forget everything from over half my life ago… What am I saying..I do. She’s grand. Why do I think so much when I am alone?
We had advisory together.. I suppose that is like home room. I feel like he got less annoying the more we grew up. That’s more than I can say for his dumb ass friends that I will never say a positive thing about.
You think this life would make me bolder
In front of total strangers won’t you kiss me
During my ‘birthday party’ I received a text that sent me back to what’s really important. I don’t mean to get side tracked so easily, but the minute that I see her.. that’s all that I can see. Nothing else matters, especially people that I try my hardest to forget that they exist..
She said that she was kind of in trouble, and that left me blaming myself. We don’t do a thing wrong, but I’m aware that my feelings are wrong and maybe she has some of those too. It’s all an extremely complicated journey that just makes me want to watch The Lake House all the way through, just to hear Sandra Bullock say, “You waited!” I can barely handle romantic things like that.
At night, as I lay in bed, I think about how we are similar to a couple that you would see in a black and white romance movie. However, as unexpected as it is, I am the woman, all done up with curly hair and a white dress completely with doughy eyes and all, and she is Hugh Grant, in a suit with a fancy hat on, kissing me sweetly just before she tells me that she has to leave. Oh how I love / hate how that feels. I know that she feels the same way about me as I do her.. or I wouldn’t be so quick to sacrifice my time and sanity.
and one more video to help the heart beat…
Sometimes love don’t feel like it should
Today, I faced my fears.. and gave her the card that was burning a hole in my pocket. She was perfectly sweet to me, just as I expected. My new computer watch was even noticed, I’d hate to tell her I have no idea how to use the thing. I hope it brightens her day and fills her heart with warmth. She looked a little sad, but I would never try to hold a whole conversation with someone at work. I kept it professional and then left.
This was the first song that I took note of on the radio this morning. I think that there was one on when I got in the car but it must not have been very impactful.
This morning before work, this image game me some hope, inspiration and all those important things. It really made me think about security and the deepest of feelings for someone. I never let society define me… or my love.
I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I painted a birthday card for her, or more like I painted on one.. it couldn’t be more perfect, if you ask me. Which leads to the next perfect thing:
and then my phone played this next:
On that note, I have never seen the notebook but I have heard that it is an incredibly romantic movie. Some people say I am a bit romantic.. though, I always wonder what she actually thinks about it all. It’s all – a little – irregular….