And who am I that I should be vying for your touch

Today, I took it pretty personally when she walked to the back as I came in to get my pizza. Maybe that’s what happens when I look forward to something too much. My friend that was with me stands with the idea that she never even saw us and I can only hope that was true.

When my friends and I saw this online while looking at tattoos yesterday, they said that I need to get a chicken, bacon, mushroom one. What she doesn’t know is that I have never had that pizza from anywhere but there. I just made it up to be different and awesome and well, it got me noticed, or something, not like she didn’t already know me, but she knows my pizza. I have never been like this over a person. It could be fun if anything were different but this is just extremely depressing.

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It’s not hard to see that I’m in so over my head but I don’t walk away easily.

At this moment in time, I am so disappointed in myself for not being able to stop these feelings.

we just don’t run this place

When I took a shower, I heard two lines in two different songs that I had never heard before. That will be the last line in each of the Ani songs that I post. The Adele song separated them. All just as insightful.

The last lines seemed to hit so hard tonight.

This song has some of my favorite lines in it, one being at the 2 minute mark. Music gets me though me day.

What if I say I will never surrender?

I socially engineered situations today in the name of sanity.. When my friend got back with my pizza.. we were both like.. we should have thought that through.. I have a unique favorite pizza and we were both sure that she saw right through us.. I know that she’s smarter than that and can see me coming from a million miles away.

As long as she knows it was nothing but romantic. Damn the things I get myself into.

I just want to cry..

and the results were even what I wanted.. just to know she was safe. I’m bad about that.