Folk

Folk music includes traditional folk music and the genre that evolved from it during the 20th-century folk revival. Some types of folk music may be called world music.

think i’m going for a walk now i feel a little unsteady

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Today I had to go on another walk.  I didn’t stop at the park like I normally do, because there were some kids playing there.  I have listened to all of my Ani Difranco songs up until about the Ls at this point.  This song hasn’t come up yet, but at 3 am this seems to make me feel better about something.  I wish she wouldn’t blow me off the way that she does.


But I do look forward to seeing her again.

Staring at the bottom of your glass, Hoping one day you’ll make a dream last

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I have been trying so hard – to love her the right way.  It isn’t ever easy loving someone that you can’t be with, but it gets even harder when you have to face the reasons why you can’t.

Yesterday I spent a few moments complaining to my best friend from high school, that I was certain her boyfriend is Charlie and I explained how I came to that conclusion. I think her response was something along the lines of, “Jen.. what did you think paying attention would get you?” So I listened and I remembered, I typed some words in youtube and I watched every video that I found on that channel.  Well only most of them, and then followed that up by an explanation to her via email. I am so nerdy sometimes.

I just said, “Amy.. I am sure she is dating Charlie… and I am pretty certain that he is the one that won’t even let her be part of my life…”  If anyone knows that I have difficulty making real connections with people, its her.  She’s been my best friend since about 1997.. around the same time that I met Charlie.  I am pretty sure that he was in my computer lit class.. the last year that I had a crush on a boy.  It was 7th grade.

When you grow up in the middle of no where going to a conservative ass school… you get to know the people you grow up with.  If the guys you live with dont know who I am, its only because they are so full of them selves and stuck up, they have forgotten or something.

She asked, “Does he know that it is you that he is saying that she can’t talk to?”  Like I know.. but she was just as shocked.  I don’t know why I feel so entitled to be in contact with my friends that mean the most to me… but people just don’t tell me who I can and can’t talk to.  A strong woman taught me that years ago.

PS, I didn’t run over the hairy faced guy riding his bike up the street last night around 11 as I was headed to the gas station.  I felt like someone should have been proud.  It was dark and I honestly didn’t see his face but in my mind — he could have been the offending party.

And for the record.. I would never hurt anyone, not even someone that would purposely hurt me, but at 11 at night I will make jokes to myself in my head about it.

Tomorrow makes one year since you called me your girlfriend as I was taking you home.  I will never forget that night.

‘Staring at the bottom of your glass, hoping one day you’ll make a dream last’

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Today my song didn’t come to when I was driving back to work but when I was coming home from the hospital after visiting my friend, Ronnie…  She had to have some random surgery, pretty scary stuff, but when I left.. I was still reminded her by that damn radio.

Last night, around midnight, I got a call from Ronnie.  She had already told me that she had to leave work early because she was sick and that she had to get surgery today.  When she called me back later, she asked me if I would come stay up there with her.

It was the first time that I had ever slept at a hospital before.  As I was driving up there, I was convinced that there was no way that they would let me even go back there to see her.  I’ve seen ‘If These Walls Could Talk 2″ and I have felt.. very much in a patriarchy world lately, but much to my surprise, no one batted an eye and everyone was really nice.  The chair made into a bed and they gave me a blanket a pillow.  She is just a friend that has become important to me.

When you sleep at a hospital, you don’t.  When I am woken up every hour for whatever they are doing, it takes me that long to get back to sleep.  Around 5 am I decided to get up and go home. She was getting blood work done and I don’t need to see.. blood.  My sister dropped off my niece and I slept until I had to put her on the bus at 6:45.  My bed has never felt so inviting.  It couldn’t have hurt that I had to wash all of my sheets and blankets on account of my dog becoming tragically ill during this lovely week.  So after the kid was on the bus, of course I had to sleep just a little longer.

The dream seemed so real so I couldn’t even imagine how it started.  When  I have a dream that all of my teeth are falling out, it always happens the same way.  It’s always a jagged, bloody mess.  I can’t say that there is ever any physical pain but always a feeling of panic and embarrassment.  This morning in my dream I was wearing some kid of retainer and my teeth were all just so loose.  Something happened differently this time.  From past dreams, I never remember trying to do something about it, just putting my broken teeth in my pocket or something.  Today in my dream, I had called my grandmother to ask her if I could borrow money to go to the dentist.  It seems so strange like, what the heck is the dentist going to do but.. it’s what happened.  I don’t remember how she responded at all but I remember specifically telling her that I only had $200.  From what I know about dentistry, I wasn’t going to get much for that $200.

My alarm had been set, but somehow I had turned it off, maybe just to lay down for one more minute.  Something suddenly woke me and work had started 15 minutes ago.  More concerned that I had all of my teeth, I went and brushed my teeth and rushed off to work.  My hair may have looked like… well awesome. and I was in the clothes that I slept in at the hospital, but I went to work.. and I had all my teeth.

That moment that I realize the song I referenced has nothing to do with my post at all, but was part of my day and I am pretty sure that is completely related.  We all know that I have no clue what I am talking about at this point anyway.

Updated: March 2018 – Link to video, image and tags

‘I am alone with my feelings and I can finish my thoughts’

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Tonight an album that I used to listen to a lot crossed my mind.  It was called Restoration by Doria Roberts.  It doesn’t seem like I can find most of my favorite songs from that cd but ‘Nothing Sold, Nothing Bought‘ (Listen to) was the song that I thought about when I looked at the clock and say that it was 3 am, but it was a completely different song that I was actually thinking of.  I ended up listening to ‘Thinking of You‘ (YouTube) which was.. not something I was specifically looking for but suiting.

Doria Roberts is most famous for her song ‘Perfect‘ and is one of my all time favorites.

The song that lead me to thinking about all of the above songs was actually called ‘Dying Man’s Wish‘ (YouTube) and I was completely wrong about the lyrics that made me think of it all from the start.  The line is “It’s 5 AM and I’m drinking coffee with my girlfriend.”  It was only 3 AM so… I should have been thinking about Matchbox 20 all along.

I have no idea why that song is titled that.  I feel like I am going to be awake for a while.