It’s getting late or I could say it’s early depending on how I want to look at this day

Last night I emailed her around 5 am my time.. it was 3 am where she is right now… A few of my words derived from this song. I used to love listening to Doria Roberts, Restoration but I can hardly find that full album anymore. I sure I hope I hear from this lady soon. It’s like I hold my breathe in between.. why? Not sure.

he didn’t understand me and I don’t know why I didn’t go

If my life were a movie, this is where the sensitive ones would have started to cry softly to themselves.. It made me want to anyway. My friend, Torie, had wanted me to come over for a while. I was at another friend’s house but I left to walk to her house. I believe in perfect timing.. and well… not so perfect timing too.

As I walked up the major street that I live on, or I suppose I should say we.. I had my phone playing my MP3s on shuffle and just second after “Rush Hour” by Ani Difranco started to play, Just as the words “Did not tell him there were certain things he did not need to know” echoed through my ears. I was staring at the stars… because this song.. puts me in some kind of place… Just then this star fell straight down, right in front of me.

This lady that has stolen my heart lives within walking distance. If I would have kept walking down this street, I would end up at her house.. essentially.. I stopped dead in my tracks. I felt like the star fell forever. It burnt out much later than I expected. I stopped to text and tell her about it. It’s been days since I have talked to her. She’s on vacation. I try not to wonder with whom. My lunch break is almost over and this song is going to make me.. feel something. **Big Gulp**

Have I mentioned that I never thought that I could love again…

I’m pretty sure that I was wrong.

we negotiate with chaos

How does she do this to me? It was sort of funny when I said something about her to a co-worker today and in referring to her I said, “Well, the lady that I wish was my girlfriend…” She laughed and said, “You better not let your girlfriend hear you say that.” I laughed back and said.. yeah same person.. I don’t know why. I am sure a nerd… always dreaming.

I think I was actually just making an excuse for why I haven’t shaved in so long when she saw me scratch my leg… if she only knew, it was really because I am lazy as fuck…

Now for a completely unrelated – amazing song..

This is you according to me

She’s on vacation and I haven’t heard from her in a few days. This morning while I was listening to my play list, this song came on right after Adele “Rumor has it” and it made me feel a little better since that song always makes me a little frustrated. Our birthdays are coming up. I can’t wait to see her. My imagination runs wild and she’s always part of that. Once in a while she says things that take me by surprise.. and I love it. Maybe her imagination runs wild about me too.