Country

Country music, also known as country and western (or simply country), and hillbilly music, is a genre of popular music that originated in the southern United States in the early 1920s. It takes its roots from genres such as American folk music (especially Appalachian folk and Western music) and blues.

Oh my life is changing everyday

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Since it was Valentine’s day, I spent time with the woman that I love most – my grandma. On the way to her house, I heard a song on the radio that caught my attention. It was about half way through the song when I realized that it must be called “In The Air Tonight” by Phil Collins, because I recognized a line that took me back to “Stan” by Eminiem. It’s funny that I have watched the movie “Kids” and related this song to Eminiem.. it’s just unexpected to learn anything from Marshall Mathers.

I really have no idea what that song is about but the first few lines spoke to me, then I realized it was the song that was referenced in “Stan” and I have always loved that song. I used to watch the “Guilty Conscience” video way too often too.

Today, when I was talking about going to see a friend after I left her house – she said, “That’s something you have a lot of – friends, that’s really good.” She married when she was 16 years old. She feels like she missed out on a lot in life – and I know that having her own personal friends is one of them. She is a twin so if it wasn’t her sister, it was her husband. She has no idea how much my friends help me get through. There are moments when I feel like no one cares and no one understands and that everything is pointless – and just at the right moment, someone steps back in my life and reminds me that I am worth it.. and that everything is just circumstantial. It makes a big difference. Never underestimate how much a few words might help someone on such a deep level.

When this video came out, I thought that it was so great. My life has changed a little, however, it is still entertaining.

The next song that I paid attention to while driving to my grandma’s house was The Cranberries.

Then I came home and my brother was singing a personal favorite of ours.

Oh my resistance ain’t that strong.

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Today, I came across a video online. At a glance, I confused Travis Tritt with Tracy Byrd. When I read who it was, I laughed to myself – because it’s really not that far off.

This is the county that I used to listen to as I would fall asleep at nap time when I stayed with my grandma before I started school.  My grandma always had 97.3 playing.  Even when I was too old to take a nap, I spent my summers at my grandparents house.  They had a home daycare that she started in order to take care of me after my mom left us.  To say the least, the song was an emotional journey to listen to.

Last night, I googled her name.  Sometimes I like to do that for the fuck of it.  Nothing new ever comes up.  She is a private person.  There’s not a whole lot to look at but this one site always comes up.  Its come background check type site.  The site is called www.fastpeoplesearch.com which seems like some fake ass shit to me, but the address information on these seems quite accurate.  I’ve google mapped plenty of addresses from that site just to look at old homes.. It’s not the first time I have looked at the site and clicked through names.  Last night, I must have clicked too many times because I ended up on C’s name and much to my surprise, his address was listed as one of my best friend’s houses… She has since moved, long ago, but for the first few seconds, that didn’t register.  My immediate reaction was, why does he have A’s address on his name?  Once I realized the world, in fact, did not revolve around me, I decided that that was one random chain of events.  If I had not moved last year, we would live about a block apart.  Luckily – I did move.. and then move back, so at least we are like 5 blocks away.

It’s still very strange to me.  I decided this was a good sign that I needed to get off the computer and try to go to bed.  I couldn’t.  So I got back on and emailed her – because I like telling her how weird I am.  It’s a tragic flaw of mine…  In my quest to be a tragic hero.

I know you didn’t bring me out here to drown

• by admin • In Alternative rock, Country, Pop Rock, Post-Grunge, Soft Rock •   0

I’ve been having a really hard time lately. Its just been constant anxiety but I get through.  Today, I found out that my mom is in jail again for ‘simple assault’ for the 3rd fucking time.  I know that is not good but I can only hope that she gets the help that she needs.

On a completely unrelated note, my brother was singing to this song today and I fell in love with it.  Now I am back to what I would consider imaginary issues that are nearly non existent at this point.

Now he is playing a song that I have seen send people into a PTSD breakdown.

Since I fear death for everyone around me so badly lately, just hearing him sing it brings tears to my eyes and a deep pain in my heart.  My mother has suffered from alcoholism my entire life and all of my siblings have suffered from it in one way or another.  I may not have a problem with drinking too much but I do have deep seeded issues with alcoholics.

His play list is getting to sad for me and leaving me crying… The only songs that I know that hurt more are in my brother’s memorial video. I can never hear those songs without difficulty.

What’s He Doing in My World?

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I went to another baby shower for another cousin.  As I put my records away, trying to figure out which way should be up, I decide to send an email.  While composing that email, I remember inviting her to my other cousin’s baby shower.  She gave me the realest answer, which is all I ever wanted.  She was too shy in a way and baby showers weren’t really her thing.. I wanted to remind her that they weren’t really my thing either – but I knew how my family would react if a brought a female guest, so I understood and went alone.

The last record that I put on the shelf before I sent the email was The Magic of Eddie Arnold.  My grandma used to play his tapes in the car when we went on long road trips.  He might be the most famous for “Cattle Call” but my favorite songs are below.  Sometimes I wonder how M and T feel about the woman in my life.. I am sure they could care less, but what if I am wrong?

What have I become my sweetest friend.

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doday, 101 X reminded me that Johnny Cash could put Trent Reznor in his place any day.  This is only a compliment, I love Nine Inch Nails and I have a lot of respect for it all, when I was in high school, I didn’t understand and I was offended that a country singer would attempt a Nine Inch Nails song. A decade later, I hear it on the radio and it says something new that I have never heard before.  I never thought that I would be the liar.

I must just be emotional today because the next song was Oasis’s Champagne Supernova which is another song that I have hear thousands of times, but it also seemed to send a message.  Every day I feel like I learn something new about emotions.  I wonder if I will ever understand.

Back in high school, I wasn’t really aware that Johnny Cash was a bad ass.  I grew up in the country and despised much of the culture.  It didn’t help that society had perpetuated that.

Fillin’ up my mind and emptying my heart

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I was driving on I-20 on my way to Shreveport for work when this next song caught my attention. It was only a few lines in and I was distracted. You may not know this but East Texas has a poor selection for music on the radio and I can only imagine that 11 pm isn’t the best time to search for good music. It was then that I decided that this was going to be one of the next songs that I learned to play on bass.

Garth Brooks “What She’s Doing Now”

Today, I presented it to my brother, he pointed out how it is so obviously out-dated. Despite the lack of modernism, I am still going to run with it. You actually can’t just look up anyone on facebook to see how they are doing all of the time.. if you ever want to make someone really miss you, delete your facebook, I suppose. We also discussed that numbers changing aren’t as common with cell phones either, but then again – I know plenty of people that have had several numbers in the last few years.. soo yes, in 1991 this song may have had a slightly different circumstance, it could still all hold true.