Alternative
Livin’ a life that I can’t leave behind
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I’ve said too much
There’s that line in this song that takes me back to everything bagels and desperately listening. That laughter warms my heart more than I could describe. I’d do anything just to spend a little time with her.
Tonight has been hard and I feel I caused it with one bad decision and ridiculously terrible timing.
I should go listen to some Sarah McLachlan. There’s a woman that I can’t get off my mind. I just want to fight for her so badly.
I thought that I heard you laughing
Today, I needed a song from 1991 because I noticed that my word cloud at the bottom of the page was not even – we will blame the retrograde or something. I should be asleep – its 9:15 AM – but I have been logging into work early to cover for people, I am logged out until 10 currently.
I realized why I have no songs from 1991 – they are all pretty terrible, except this one.
Last Tuesday, I went to karaoke and this is the song of the night. I watched the words as they scrolled down the screen. It was one of those moments – where I had heard the song so many times, thousands on this one – but that night – one week ago, I felt like I was writing the words as they displayed.
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I’ve said too much
Trying to keep up with you
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no I’ve said too much
I haven’t said enoughI thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you tryEvery whisper, of every waking hour
I’m choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost and blinded fool, fool
Oh no I’ve said too much
I set it upConsider this
Consider this the hint of the century
Consider this the slip
That brought me to my knees, failed
What if all these fantasies come
Flailing around
Now I’ve said too muchBut that was just a dream
That was just a dream
I have always known it was a gay song, well I am quite sure its historical anyway – but last Tuesday, it meant more to me.
I need a moment to deliberate
The City of Angel sound track is coming up again.
If shame had a face
I didn’t see that coming at all – now I wish I never even bought these tickets.
Also, I almost died yesterday, accidently from being distracted. It would have been real bad for many. Thank you to the powers that put that second between me and the truck.
I wondered if she heard him lay on his horn. I had walked closer because it was the first time I had not seen her car – and it scared me. When I walked closer – I saw his so I turned to leave.. too quickly.
I’m a woman of my word, now haven’t you heard
Cat Power was just added to the bill for the show on August 12th. I have been looking forward to it since December 2019 when I bought the tickets for the lady and I. So much has happened, so much has changed. I really hope that she can still go with me. I have been so afraid all week. She moved tomorrow.
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
As I listen to these songs, I can hear her says – I usually listen to music that is harder.
I couldn’t laugh at myself more – and I would say ‘if she only knew’ but I am sure that she has an idea.
Memories seep from my veins
I hate when commercials ruin songs, hopefully soon we will forgot about those sad dogs on TV. Damn, I cleaned under my spacebar and now it is hitting weird. Let today mark the day that I broke something trying to clean. I advise against it.
Also – this music, makes me not hungry. Whatever that means.
This song hurt in weird ways. When I reverse a song, it usually digs deep.
Headed back to that time period, quickly. Now a few from one of my first CDs.