You’ve been looking for something that’s not in your life

October 30, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Grammy Nominee, Music, Rock • 0

My heart melted when the first thing that she said to me from California was that we should move there… okay, it was the second, she told me when she landed safely. I am fortunate to have her in my life. Parts of this video look like something I would do – the cinder blocks with tiny things displayed on them. I love singing this song out loud. Lately, I have started singing the “the mist that covers your eyes” part in front of my friends when it comes on. The sincere smile that I get.. lets me know that everyone knows that my intentions are true. I have never been an unethical or immoral person, so I stuggle with a few things from time to time.

Like – why am I concerned with if he knows who I am or not. I mean, I am sure that he does unless drugs have gotten to him, if I had a beautiful woman in my life, maybe I could forget everything from over half my life ago… What am I saying..I do. She’s grand. Why do I think so much when I am alone?

We had advisory together.. I suppose that is like home room. I feel like he got less annoying the more we grew up. That’s more than I can say for his dumb ass friends that I will never say a positive thing about.

It’s time to go breathe some fresh air – or eat some pizza

October 30, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Words • 0

I often have to remind myself that I don’t know everything. Sometimes, I don’t know a lot about a subject at all. It’s never easy, but in the end, I end up convincing myself that she knows what’s best, I trust her opinion and that she would make the best decisions for her. I have never trusted anyone like that. I am more than amazed at the way I have handled everything, and the directions my thoughts generally go. Today I am going to tell my story with crap I save off the internet..

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Names, Dates, and Times

October 29, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Movies, Words • 0

I like coming across lists like this. Too often lists on the Internet are boring. It reminds us to be thankful for what we have.

20 Signs You’re Succeeding In Life Even If You Don’t Feel You Are

I know that I have come an extremely long way. I wonder is that psychic that I talked to over 15 years ago was right about me settling down in my 30s.

Day number one of 30 doesn’t feel too bad. Of course all the people that tell me that I look 18 help that a little. Living in a college town and aging is a difficult process. Would she want to know that I would totally settle down with her. Often, I want to tell her that she knows the single me. She sees the romantic me come out from time to time, but she has never really known the dedicated and charming side.. or so I feel. This has all been rough and I think about it all too much.

I have quotes from “The Lake House” spinning in my head. I finally watched the first half and it was everything that I had imagined. I wonder if she has seen the movie..

It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to

October 28, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Music, Pop Rock, TV, TV Show, Words • 1

Why do I even care if T told me happy birthday before she did… She surprised me last year and I’m still holding my breathe.. and fighting my urge for pizza… and failing. I wonder if I piss her off… or could she find it romantic too? I’ve never feel like this before.

I want to learn how to make videos like this:

I wouldn’t dare tell anyone else that I downloaded Premiere… and stared at it for a minute. It was almost as overwhelming. How did this happen?

It amazes me – how the mind works. How do is it that over 10 years after I graduated, I start thinking about how he was moved into my algebra I class half way through the year in 7th grade with a bunch of other guys. Our class was all female before that. That was the first time he interrupted my energy.. They sat in the back at this long table. Why do I think about these things?

Internal battles are something else. I try to stay away from lifehouse, since, you know, I don’t want to get beat up – but it’s pretty much how I feel today. The only thing that I want to do is spend time with her.

You think this life would make me bolder

October 27, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Grammy Nominee, Music, Pop, Pop Rock, Rock • 0

In front of total strangers won’t you kiss me

October 27, 2014September 30, 2021 • by admin • In Grammy Nominee, Heartland rock, Movies, Music, Rock • 0

During my ‘birthday party’ I received a text that sent me back to what’s really important. I don’t mean to get side tracked so easily, but the minute that I see her.. that’s all that I can see. Nothing else matters, especially people that I try my hardest to forget that they exist..

She said that she was kind of in trouble, and that left me blaming myself. We don’t do a thing wrong, but I’m aware that my feelings are wrong and maybe she has some of those too. It’s all an extremely complicated journey that just makes me want to watch The Lake House all the way through, just to hear Sandra Bullock say, “You waited!” I can barely handle romantic things like that.

At night, as I lay in bed, I think about how we are similar to a couple that you would see in a black and white romance movie. However, as unexpected as it is, I am the woman, all done up with curly hair and a white dress completely with doughy eyes and all, and she is Hugh Grant, in a suit with a fancy hat on, kissing me sweetly just before she tells me that she has to leave. Oh how I love / hate how that feels. I know that she feels the same way about me as I do her.. or I wouldn’t be so quick to sacrifice my time and sanity.

and one more video to help the heart beat…

I guess you never know

October 20, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Medical, Words • 0

I’ve always known that I was different, everyone has always told me that I that I think differently. As of lately, I have been trying to determine what makes me.. some impossible sometimes. At first I suspected that I could have Asperger syndrome. Recently, I have met a lot of friends that have kids that have been diagnosed with it and the symptoms are all too relate able. Just now I ended up reading an article about ADD and wondered.. what if I have ADD. I feel like a lot of people have been diagnosed with this. Either way, if it just a crutch to rely on pharmaceuticals to avoid having to deal with your situations on your own? I often feel guilty, but remind myself how much it helps.

20 Things to Remember If You Love a Person with ADD

Sometimes love don’t feel like it should

October 20, 2014September 29, 2021 • by admin • In Grammy Nominee, Music, Pop, Pop Rock • 0

Today, I faced my fears.. and gave her the card that was burning a hole in my pocket. She was perfectly sweet to me, just as I expected. My new computer watch was even noticed, I’d hate to tell her I have no idea how to use the thing. I hope it brightens her day and fills her heart with warmth. She looked a little sad, but I would never try to hold a whole conversation with someone at work. I kept it professional and then left.

This was the first song that I took note of on the radio this morning. I think that there was one on when I got in the car but it must not have been very impactful.

This morning before work, this image game me some hope, inspiration and all those important things. It really made me think about security and the deepest of feelings for someone. I never let society define me… or my love.