It took a lot to remain calm after the way my ex was talking to me today. She thinks that is it okay to call me asking me to help get her kids ready for school, only to complain about how I am doing. We are working on separating our things, including the phone bill, but in between, its a constant struggle to remain polite without being taken advantage of. I love seeing the kids and spending time with them but I want it on my own terms, not to benefit her.
There was plenty of crying and raising voices today, just like any other day. The four year old has started saying that mommy was loud and Jen cries. It’s sad.
Everything changed when I opened my IG this evening. I saw a red dot and didn’t know what it means, so I clicked it. It was only the best surprise and the last thing I expected.
Now I am holding my breathe until 2 PM tomorrow and smiling more than I have all year.
This song doesn’t have much relevance to much. At some point when I was trying to cheer myself up, I remembered a burned CD that I found in a computer at work back at TNI. I was pretty sad at the time and decided to listen to it to see what it was. It was some Coconut Records album. It was the first time and possibly only time I had heard of them – but I like the way it makes me feel. When I think of the West Coast, I think about when She landed in San Francisco and called me. I may never forget that and can’t wait to see her tomorrow. I might even sleep tonight to celebrate. There is a part of me that wondered if I would ever hear from her again.
The Internet played this song a few minutes later and it is one of my favorite covers.
I wouldn’t mind visiting Lake Tahoe either, and this cover is pretty great too.
I saw Staind in concert with Sevendust and Marilyn Manson on Halloween of probably 2004. Was an interesting show. I missed Sevendust due to never driving on a 6 lane highway before. It was intense, in Dallas.
