Somehow, I feel, that I am really getting the raw end of the deal here. As we approach my girlfriend’s seven-year-old son’s birthday in less than 48 hours, I am perplexed with what to do about dealing with each kid crapping themselves daily. The 2-and-a-half-year-old is one thing but the seven-year-old is a bigger problem. With little to no disciple, they keep me running continuously if I am home. I have about 14 call center agents that do that same to me at work and in the end, I am more than done with this exhausting schedule.
Friday, the two-year old’s father is scheduled to fly in at midnight so that he can take her back to WA state to visit. It is beyond me as to why he chooses to fly in on the seven-year old’s birthday nor can I understand what makes him think that he should stay for 5 entire days when I couldn’t even stay him being in my gfs house for more than a day and now that I have moved in, I am stuck. Months ago, I made it clear to my brother that he always had a place to stay with me and he has finally accepted that he needed to some stay at my house, which is now someone else’s house that I stay n and primarily pay for but that’s neither here nor there. When Friday arrives, my brother is expected to give up his bed to the ex-boyfriend that decided to crash the party.
I can only hope that my brother is understanding and does not take it personally. I had no idea that his bed was spoke to when I offered it to him. While I was folding clothes, I realized what my biggest problem with him is. My girlfriend loves to control me by my emotions if she likes to admit it or not. It’s hard not to fall in love with young children that you take care of so often. I feel like it’s even harder when their future is uncertain and you are currently providing for them.
Months ago, after a fight, she made it very clear that if I were to leave her, I would never see her kids again. She is quick to say that I am their mother or try to include me in the family, but the minute you exclude me from their future because of our relationship status, is the minute I no longer feel safe to love them or even respected.
My time had been interrupted but I feel like its completely unfair that I love then, support them, take care of them and their biological fathers are guaranteed to be part of their lives but I am not because I did not create them. This is the type of double standard that is going to ultimately drive me away.