I always have to remember that I should be able to handle what I ask for. I have been trying to find a way out of this relationship for a while now, but when she moves on before I realize that we are actually broken up – it hurts. Not to mention, it didn’t help that it’s the mechanic that she met since we have been together. She has been obsessed with her ever since and even kicked my brother out of our house when he was talking shit about her.
I let her come in my house, smoked with her and she took my believed to be girlfriend out on New Years Eve. For some reason, I didn’t expect to be so offended and defensive, but I guess that is what my life has become. My old friends will be glad to have me back, but it will be hard gathering them all up. One of the last women that I dated – years ago – has already had a baby, left her boyfriend and gotten back with him – not that I am keeping tabs. Then well, my favorite friend still can’t or won’t talk to me anymore – so that’s always fun and difficult. The only reason that I ever thought it would be a good idea to be in a relationship in the first place, is I thought it would help guys trust me with their girlfriends but apparently, I’ve gone and fucked that one up.